24 relationship questions
1) Single, Taken, or Crushin? - Single/crushing?. 2) Are you happy with where you are? - No.. ahaha
3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast? - I guess I would.
4) Have you ever had your heart broken? - Nope. (unless those encountered while watching tv dramas...)
5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is acceptable? - Yeah. But not cheating on your loved one. Just cheating to get your loved one maybe..
6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? - No! If he can do it once, he can do it again.
7) Have you talked about marriage with another? - With my girlfriends, yes. Haha.
8) Do you want children? - Yeah! Though the thought of them crying non-stop kinda puts me off alittle. But nonetheless...I ever thought of being a surrogate mum..
9) How many? - four is the max. unless we are financially secured and don't mind more company..
10) Would you consider adoption? - Hmmm. If I'm infertile or he's infertile or we just have too much money and feel like getting more kids? yes.
11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way of letting you know? - Tell me directly and give me a little gift? and constant reassurance-so that I know it's not just a joke...
12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get? - Being coy is quite a natural thing but no.. not really.
13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating? - chasing game? I haven't even dated?
14) Do you believe in love at first sight? - Yea..
15) Are you romantic? - Absolutely positive!
16) Do you believe that you can change someone? - maybe..I do.
17) If you could get married anywhere, money not an object where would it be? - Get married first in Singaopore and take a world tour..renewing the vow in every country in different wedding gowns and setting. Interesting, isn't it?
18)What quality must your man have- Tolerance.
19) Do you easily give in when you are fighting? - Depends on what kind of "fighting". But usually, yes. I need some peace.
20) Do you have feelings for someone right now? - Maybe?
21) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you messed it up? - no.
22.) Have you ever broken a heart? - Ermm, yeah I suppose. A couple of few, but I know they'd gotten over it. (:
24.) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other? - no. but I believe you have to fight for your happiness.

Ok, I was bored. Now you know what I want? ^_^

Sigh.. I just recieved news that I didn't get through the olympiad. Sad? A little. Happy? Quite.
People always say that I never finish what I start. I know. Maybe that's why I reap what I sow. Shadows of the past haunt me, I can't imagine the future, I can't focus on the present. Many thoughts run through my mind but I can't put them all down. My weakness.. is telling you my weakness. so I shall be smart and zip up on that ^_^.
Even if I don't want to share about other things today, I want to share this two important things that I have learnt the past 5 days staying away from the com.

Love is selfless.

don't take for granted all the good in your life. Cherish them while you can. Nothing lasts forever here.

It is not easy to trust someone.

actually, I meant that you can trust somebody easily.. but most of the time after you get hurt, you know it's not easy to trust the same person again. And you[ or maybe just me] lose faith in others because anyone is capable of loving and hurting you.

See for yourself.. I haven't changed much.. but some age related gene must have triggered the melanin production in my body.. [forgive me if the photos and words are in a mess.. i'm in no mood to arrange them neatly. haha.. wouldn't do so even if I'm in the mood=P]
hat's me when I didn't know what a camera was [toothy grin ^_^ ahaha.. love my baby teeth..]











that's me trying to behave like a girl.. [looking miserable]











that's me when I know what a camera is and didn't like it. And oh, Jason, do you remember me?











that's me hugging my first teddy.. looks.. uh..weird. I know ^_^















that's me who knows what a camera is and.. likes it for the moment..


See? I'm still me.. Am I that guyish? =_= sigh..

oh, biolympiad should be screwed by the way..or I screwed my up.. oh well I don't like plants!! =_= and poor me for being named after one..

Trying to influence dad to let me get my earrings.. He said it wouldn't make a difference because guys also wear them nowdays =_= very good excuse..

Yesterday[16.11.06]

Me: Hello auntie!

Auntie: Hey boy, what do you want? [pauses and gives an embarassed look]

Me: [Indignant look]

Auntie: sorry sorry

Yea.. it happened again. I was mistaken as a boy. It happened thrice this year.. the first one was when I was in school with Li Sha. I sat really close to her and a maid walked up to us and exclaimed..

In school

Maid: Aiyo! I was thinking why a boy is sitting so close to a girl in school! So you are a girl! -_-

Me: Uh, ya. I'm a girl.[fortunately/ unfortunately?]

Food Stall Auntie: Boy, what can I get for you?

Me: =_=

[similar cases in coffeeshops]

In the toilet

Auntie: Boy, the gents is at the opposite side

Me: [shocked and lost] Uh, I came in to take toilet paper for my mom.. and I'm a GIRL..[blushes and rushed out]

In a drama camp

Mr. Soup[yea, his surname is tang..let's just keep it at that] is the worse case that I've ever had with this gender problem thing.

Mr. Soup: Hey, where're you from?

Me: XinMin, you?

Mr. Soup: Maris Stella [I don't remember which]

We hugged and played together like buddies. I thought we were.. but to be sure..I told him..

Me: Hey.. I'm a girl, you know..

Mr. Soup: What? Don't fake it.. haha [Pulls my shirt..yea, he's checking for ahem..]

Me: Shocked look but ok.. maybe he knows

Mr. Soup: Walked away [he still didn't realise!! :O]

and from there.. things didn't go very well and I lost a potentially good buddy. [he still didn't forgive me for not being super open about it on day one even when we graduated]

I mean, I was really fair when I was young.. Most females prefer to be fair, no? That's why Olay and Garnier whitening sells ^^

Sad to say this, but I've wasted the whole day again.. First, I went mapling for 2 hours and then later on I watched 'Cast Away' for 2 hours. Thank god it was commercial free. Boy, I could have done a lot of work in that 4 hours. It's the second time that I watched the show. First time I watched it, I cried.. But that was a year ago. This time? Nah.. But I learnt 2 things that I probably forgot by now.. Two things that 'Jack' the male lead said that I must start remembering by heart.

1) Never lose track of time. Time waits for no man.. yea.. 4 hours gone just like that..
2) I gotta keep breathing, because the tomorrow the sun will rise.. Who knows what the tide would bring? A reminder to all who wants to give up.. Don't. Because there's always hope, no matter how impossible things may seem..

I still believe that god exists.. So even when there's no hope in humans..
you can still hope in the lord =D

I meant to blog this yesterday but I couldn't find the time to so.. here we go.

Thank you!!! Thank you XY and JJ!! I thought we were celebrating JJ's bdae and it turned out that you 2 came to celebrate mine! Ok, it's a little late but =D aww.. so sweet of you! Yea and so, we sat at the staircase at my void deck and talked about the good old days.. Got scolded by an Auntie who was preparing for some funeral because we were playing with fire :O I joked that she was afraid the incense paper would fly over and catch fire.. oh well. ha.

Thank you so much.. and coincidentally, the astrological report for that day was, Prospects that you thought evaporated, reappeared in your life.. =D

Yay! PW IS OVER! BYE BYE! TAKE CARE! I DON"T WANT TO WORK WITH YOU ANYMORE! Yea.. for this bloody OP, I got up freaking early so that I could reach school at 7am. I'm very tired.. but I too happy to go to bed. ^_^ No more PW! Freaking PW! haha. it's over and it's not screwed.(hopefully) argh.. not a good day to blog about anything else. I want to play!

Went for a jog.. Yea, it's been a while since I last jogged alone round the neighbourhood. Had to sneak out too. Don't ask. Feels good to dissapate heat energy. I used the signs as my checkpoint.. but more importantly, I imagined that I was going not just towards the goal but towards my loved one-dad haha. So it worked.. for long stretches I took 2 minutes per checkpoint on the average..not too bad for a first time. Will keep playing.. and sorry to that someone who asked me to play badminton >.< see if we can do that in school? ;) better chances

I miss my bro..

NOTE TO SELF: DO NOT DO SIT UPS ON METAL BENCHES (ouch.. my head..) =D

Strange.. It's been a long while since I last touched my tarot cards.. Suddenly, I felt drawn to it. So, I decided to do one reading and asked to show me what I needed to know. It spoke what was on my mind. There seem to be some form of an internal struggle and a battle of the head and the heart. I don't know which to trust. There's a decision to make. I have all that I need an my situation requires me to take action. Which path should I take? I have the answer but I'm ignoring it and allowing myself to get distracted. Sigh..the wonders of tarot =D

I don't think it's very harmful.. Tarot hasn't caused any harm..or are there negative externalities? >.<

Yea.. I love 'An Enchanted Life'.But I know reality is never as beautiful as that..

if i typed my problems here would someone up there be surfing the net and reading? or maybe that someone already knows? but is he gonna help? >.< Oh.. :'( please.. save me from sloth.. I'm so so so lazy nowadays and this won't do if i ever want to do well for biolympiad! I'm so ill-disciplined!! argh!! help!!!!

sometimes they say self help is the best. Or God helps those who help themselves [my sis said that too] How? How! How?! Please.. help me help myself then?

mother and I may not be close. But I will always remember all the little times that we spent together. I inherited quite a lot from her actually.. that quick and hot temper, impulsitivity, extrovertedness (dad's an introvert.)and some anger- towards men. The difference is that she explodes them and I implode.. sometimes. (due to co-domminance ^_^)
Sorry to say this but I really can't stand a lot of guys around here. Either they are too immature or they think too highly of themselves. (Yea, that may have to include my 'sweet' alvin. But let's just put that aside ok?)
Is it because I'm getting more like a girl and start to think that guys suck? NO. Because whether I become more feminine or not, they still suck.
I shall be smarter and ignore them as much as possible. Hopefully I'll survive and pass on the better genes to my next generation. Yea, you need guys for that right? Hopefully I can find the right slave boy. [Like the fire ant queen]

FREAKING IRRITATED.