I'm so weak! I gave up running 2.4 after my third round =( all because of my stupid ankle *whacks it I'm the only one who has not completed the run and this is so disappointing! Never have I given up so easily..but this is the first time I was running with an injury too..still, I feel like I'm so lousy..can't do anything right! stupid me stupid me! I'm not going to cry..but I can feel my disatisfaction all deep down within me. There isn't a second chance..I'm so screwed! *pulls hair..JUST KILL ME. I shouldn't have existed :'( why bring me to this world?

OH MY!! I played a flute that cost 16k!! Really cool.. Guess I'll never in my life get to own it but getting that chance to play is good enough =) I got my friend's flute fixed and now I'm off to do some homework. Had the NAPFA today and it was really bad.. got a sprain on my left leg. AGAIN. hopefully it'll be alright. all-right oops!

I knew it. I'm just a lousy rep. There were some important information passed to me at 10am but I waited till 12pm before I told my assistant rep. It was really urgent news that I could have told the class before lunch! I nearly screwed up again if not for her. It makes me feel really bad that she had to call up everybody to confirm the application for job shadowing. She even went to the library or photocopying shop to get the form photostated. While I, was playing in the CA.. She's super stressed already and yet..='( I'm so bad *knocks head against the wall 'bad jasmine bad jasmine'
Things didn't get very cheerful either when I broke my friend's flute while practicing. The concert is 2 weeks away and I broke the flute! I'm not done practicing!! The tests are coming and I hope I can pass. Haven't been studying much but I really tried and am glad to say that I at least understand a bit of everything.
This is all wrong. From what I have said, you should have gathered that I'm not a good follower, leader and super clumsy. I'm better off dead!! So sorry for screwing up every single time. I'm so stupid ='( just leave me alone and I would live my own miserable life..

ok..so this was what happened. I was told to mark the attendance of all those present in the hall on Wednesady. Did that, and even copied put nicely onto another attendance list. I saw my teacher 2 rows behind me and so I thought I could just ask my class to pass it down to her. She messaged me at 11 plus. Jas, I need the attendance list now. ( Didn't I give to you at 8?) No, the list is not with me ( Ok, can I pass it to you during contact?) No, I want it now! [and I rushed down to the canteen with the list, held on by someone.] Guess what? Yes, I got scolded. She went, Jas, I think you need to change your attitude. When I want things done at this time, I mean it.' ( why is it my fault in the first place..?)
During civics, it was so obvious that she's telling me how bad I was. Everyone got credited. Except..I'm not trying to claim credit ok. Don't get it wrong. But 1) don't accuse me of not doing my work and 2)I'm also trying my best already =S I'm just upset that, despite my efforts to please her, she's not satisfied and whatever it is, it's all my fault. Ok, maybe I'm not a good leader and I considered quitting, will someone take this job then? I guess it's not too tough, if you are good with teachers..[I just realised, I got fired by my primary school form teacher also with the same first name! Maybe history will repeat but I hope I'm the one resigning and not being kicked out] and after that, my primary school teacher found me to be a really nice student..honest! see my report book and you'll be amazed =P. Never have I been so wronged but I guess I shouldn't be upset over what's not my fault right? Better channel the energy to something useful! I'm looking out for anyone willing to take my place..No worries, the problem lies with me only. I'm not good enough for her.

Hi..Since we are so blessed, we can study, use the com, have our basic needs taken care off, I thought we could share our wealth with the needy. I'm thinking of sponsoring a child through worldvision (that would probably need $30 a mth) or send a child to school for a year ($75/- only)Anyone interested? For more information, please visit:
www.worldvision.org

I just want to say that money is not everything, but this world needs money to go round (stupid but true) Even I need some money to survive. Recently got some money from my ex-sch and could have had doubled the amount if not for my Emaths!! Now, I'm trying to get a bit more..hopefully if I get through some interviews. My new targets are set and I'm ready to start up again!

Last point, I LOVE studying! Serious.. but I hate exams =P

I slept at 3 this morning so that i could rush out some homework. I had to wake up at 6 to prepare for some prayer thing at Da Bei Yuan. You won't believe it. My brother came! ^_^ and he didn't ignore me anymore! He even joked with me, though it was pretty lame.
I fell asleep throughout the breakfast buffet,using my dad's arm as a bolster. =D and when I got into the car, I continued sleeping. Till 1 50pm, I rushed to a classmate's house to do my project. We ended at 9pm (first time I got home so late because of project) and I'm still working on it.
(Just taking a break to blog now)

I just hate my life. I can't help but feel stressed when I'm surrounded by smart people. I take a long time to understand concepts and it's really frustrating because there isn't so much time to spare. So I'm really struggling with my homework and I always fall asleep while doing them at home.(I can only start studying earliest at 8pm) That's why I HATE HOMEwork. Sigh, I wish I didn't exist. Don't have to stress the hell out of myself then.
Now, I pray hard that I don't fail my SPAs. Must..stay..positive..Really tired and sick

I hate the polyclinic. Got up at 8.30am, went there at 9.00am came out at 2pm?! Anyway, there was nothing wrong with my thyroid, just slightly prominent. Saw the doctor I wanted (Dr. Chan) A young, jovial doctor who got detention from his mentor =P. I practically wasted the whole day. Came back at 5pm and slept till 7.30pm. I didn't even realise my sis was teasing me ( touch my brow, nose, forehead and god knows where else?!) So you can imagine how tired I was. When I woke up, there were 8 mosquito bites! So again, you can imagine how tired I was. Ok, I shall do some homework before the day ends. Saisissez le jour! (a.k.a Carpe Diem!)

i just remembered that..a few days back, i was sleeping on my dad's car. I was very tired in the morning 'cause i stayed up late sor something (I can't remember) I know I may not be able to stay awake for the rest of the day so I got really afraid. And for some strange reason, I prayed. As in prayed more seriously than I usually do. This is the first time I prayed seriously since Primary 5. Is it ok for anyone to pray? I just felt so stressed up that I needed someone to turn to..and so.. Oh well, maybe I shouldn't right? Feels as if I only pray when I'm in trouble. Should forget about it..

Everything is sooo wrong! My maths is wrong, my thinking is wrong, my life is wrong and my hair is wrong! Wrong wrong wrong wrong WRONG!! XXXXX =X I really don't like this..everything! I hate homework..not because I'm not hardworking but the fact that it is HOMEwork..ok. I know this sounds unfair to some people in my class who go home extremely late almost everyday. But I always reach home no earlier than 4.45pm! That's quite late already..and I only have one day that I get to go home so early..On the average, I go home by 7 every day. And man, this sucks. I have to wake at 6 every stupid morning when I sleep at about 1am?
Got scolded by Ms Wong (the CT), 'cause I did not believe her that there was contact on yesterday. So she was angry as the other classes already done their first round and our class was so 'lousy' and 'inefficient' as quoted. My dad's being egging me to give up this position since I'm a lousy rep and ought to give it up if I can't manage. Sigh..He's always being giving all these negative comments and I always have to struggle to find what is it that I really want. I have to please him and at the same time make myself happy. Yet, most of the time his happiness is built upon my sorrow. Then again, when he's happy, I would be happy too. After I get over with not having all that I want. He loves me so much that I ought not disappoint him.
I'm still so upset =( really crying inside. I just don't feel balanced.

My oh my..Look at the time! It's so freaking early and I'm still not asleep. Well, the one thing that I'm happy is that the proposal for our fun fair item is finally completed. This is all thanks to Janice, Jack and those who really tried their best despite the tight homework schedules.. Ok..I'm gonna crash! can't think straight anymore (think crooked then?) argh!!..good morning!

So here I am, desperately trying to post a blog since a loyal reader is so disatisfied..*ahem. Enrichment week has ended and life is like a torture chamber all over again. I have homework to rush but no worries, I'm nocturnal..trying staying up till 4 30 am and waking at 6 later. It's ok. =P Don't anyone find the bio lecture today super fast? blah blah blah..and done! :O
Then during GP today..I think ate too much..First I had two sandwiches, next strawberry smoothie, then strawberry pocky, after that Ricks and some coca cola gummies! I ate Hor Fun for lunch because of Lisha! >.<>
Some thoughts that went through my little brain today is:
1. I'm lousier than the lousiest little piece of shit that you can find..(hey, lousiest shit! you are so honoured;I'm lousier)
2. Sometimes, I feel that humans are all strangers to each other; so close yet so far.
3. I think I better start doing my homework! :D