Love da gal. ;) never give up is da attitude! ahaha..
If you believe in something strong enough.. you'll get it for sure. Some day. So.. don't ever give up, my friends. =]
Friday, May 30, 2008
sayonara solitaire - lyrics
It’s because I love you so much that I hurt you, that I’m so confused
Coming close to your cold cheek, my soul was born
I always want to see you right away
I love you so much I can’t speak, so how will you see my kindness?
Hold me tighter, I believe in your warm heart
Farewell, solitaire, to tomorrow
Because I’m so small,, I give you everything, but it’s not enough
This hand, which can’t hide anything at all, I want to give to you
We still have to see of f the whit dawn
Why was I able to run across someone this important?
Holding on to these fingers that they almost hurt, I see the dream that had disappeared into sadness
Farewell, solitaire
Because I’m no longer alone, tomorrow awakens, and I’m with you.
Because I have someone whom I love so much, I’m here by your side, protecting you
I’m so glad that I was born on this earth that connects me to you..
Daisuki to omou kara ne kizutsu ittari tomadottari
Tsumetai hoho wo yose ate kokoro ga umareta
Itsumo ima sugu ni aitai
Mukuchi ni naruhodo suki yo yasashi sa doushitara mieru no
Dakishimete motto tsuyoku atataka na mune wo shinjiru yo
Sayonara solitia ashita he
Chiisana watashi dakaza zenbu demo tarinai yone
Nanni mo kakusanai de anata ni agetai
Mada shiroi yoake wo miokutte
Konnani daiji na hito ni doushite meguri aetano to
Itai hodo tsunagu yubi de sabishi sa kienu yume wo miru no
Sayonara solitia
Mou hitori jyanai kara ashita mezameru no anata to
Daisuki na hito dahara ne sobani iru mamotteru
Ananta he tsunagaru daichi ni umerete yokatta
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
1) What do want and need in your Relationship (or Marriage)?
I need love, care, loyalty, sincerity, faithfulness, trust, respect, patience.
I want a little craziness sometimes..
2) What do you want and need in Romance and Dating? What EXACTLY do you want from your Man (or husband).
I want him to be a man I can have complete trust in.. I need him to show that he'd really stick through rough times with me. To understand and be in tune with me on many levels..
3) What do you want and need in Sex?
Want a long foreplay.. need an orgasm? =p
4) What do you look for in a Mate (or Soul mate)?
someone with a lot of patience and understanding... someone who can connect with me and love me unconditionally as I would for him.
5) What turns you on?
Physical intimacy, good sense of humour, generosity, patience.
6) What turns you off?
Flirts, cheats, pettiness, bearing grudges, unfaithful, misers.
7) What do you (Secretly) wish your partner would know about you if you have a chance to convey that to him?
that I'm always there for him and would always care for him
8) What Do You Find MOST Challenging or Difficult about Your Love, Relationship and Marriage?
sometimes being unable to get the message across..and not understanding each other enough. [aka communication breakdown on different levels]
9) What is your TOP Problem in your relationship with your man
this.. only my man has to know. ^_^
I need love, care, loyalty, sincerity, faithfulness, trust, respect, patience.
I want a little craziness sometimes..
2) What do you want and need in Romance and Dating? What EXACTLY do you want from your Man (or husband).
I want him to be a man I can have complete trust in.. I need him to show that he'd really stick through rough times with me. To understand and be in tune with me on many levels..
3) What do you want and need in Sex?
Want a long foreplay.. need an orgasm? =p
4) What do you look for in a Mate (or Soul mate)?
someone with a lot of patience and understanding... someone who can connect with me and love me unconditionally as I would for him.
5) What turns you on?
Physical intimacy, good sense of humour, generosity, patience.
6) What turns you off?
Flirts, cheats, pettiness, bearing grudges, unfaithful, misers.
7) What do you (Secretly) wish your partner would know about you if you have a chance to convey that to him?
that I'm always there for him and would always care for him
8) What Do You Find MOST Challenging or Difficult about Your Love, Relationship and Marriage?
sometimes being unable to get the message across..and not understanding each other enough. [aka communication breakdown on different levels]
9) What is your TOP Problem in your relationship with your man
this.. only my man has to know. ^_^
Monday, May 26, 2008
Ripped off from yahoo today
KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia - Malaysia's education minister has dismissed complaints by an Islamic group that uniforms of schoolgirls are too sexy and invite rape, an official said Monday.
Education Minister Hishammuddin Hussein said over the weekend that his ministry was unlikely to change the school uniforms, which he does consider to be too sexy, but said officials would look into the matter.
"It is unfair to punish women and children and the clothes they wear for the act of rapists," The Star quoted him as saying. "From what I have seen, clothing is not the main consideration of those who commit despicable acts."
Hishammuddin's aide, who spoke on condition of anonymity citing protocol, confirmed the comment.
The uniform became an issue in the local media after a little known group, the National Islamic Students Association of Malaysia, issued a statement last week, saying the loose, white blouse worn by schoolgirls was too transparent.
It said the blouse encouraged rape and premarital sex. The association, which claims to have some 1,500 members, said the uniforms should be reviewed to suit Islamic ideals.
The uniform "disturbs the eyes of men, whether they like to see it or not ... Because of that molestation, premarital sex and all kinds of other things occur," it said.
The statement has made little impact in this liberal Muslim-majority nation despite being given prominence in the print media.
Some 60 percent of Malaysia's 27 million people are Muslims, who mostly dress conservatively. However, many women, including Muslims in urban areas, also wear short skirts and tight tops
gosh. hey guys. you can see and fantasize all you like. but that's about it. no touching is allowed unless.. you get permission or you want some screams by gals and enjoy a little tea session with the police. ;)
don't blame da gals k. blame your uncontrollable LUST. besides, what da gals wearing are really not v inappropriate. haix! all your testosterone's fault! *shrugs =p bleh.
KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia - Malaysia's education minister has dismissed complaints by an Islamic group that uniforms of schoolgirls are too sexy and invite rape, an official said Monday.
Education Minister Hishammuddin Hussein said over the weekend that his ministry was unlikely to change the school uniforms, which he does consider to be too sexy, but said officials would look into the matter.
"It is unfair to punish women and children and the clothes they wear for the act of rapists," The Star quoted him as saying. "From what I have seen, clothing is not the main consideration of those who commit despicable acts."
Hishammuddin's aide, who spoke on condition of anonymity citing protocol, confirmed the comment.
The uniform became an issue in the local media after a little known group, the National Islamic Students Association of Malaysia, issued a statement last week, saying the loose, white blouse worn by schoolgirls was too transparent.
It said the blouse encouraged rape and premarital sex. The association, which claims to have some 1,500 members, said the uniforms should be reviewed to suit Islamic ideals.
The uniform "disturbs the eyes of men, whether they like to see it or not ... Because of that molestation, premarital sex and all kinds of other things occur," it said.
The statement has made little impact in this liberal Muslim-majority nation despite being given prominence in the print media.
Some 60 percent of Malaysia's 27 million people are Muslims, who mostly dress conservatively. However, many women, including Muslims in urban areas, also wear short skirts and tight tops
gosh. hey guys. you can see and fantasize all you like. but that's about it. no touching is allowed unless.. you get permission or you want some screams by gals and enjoy a little tea session with the police. ;)
don't blame da gals k. blame your uncontrollable LUST. besides, what da gals wearing are really not v inappropriate. haix! all your testosterone's fault! *shrugs =p bleh.
Friday, May 23, 2008
hihi ppl.. in case i didn't keep you guys updated.. I'm studing in NUS- SDE [sch of design and environment] Archi.. I'm getting all excited and can't wait for sch to start! Cos I love workin at night.. and well.. my current job forces me to wake early =_= though i still slp late doing god knows what.. ahaha. love to nap in the afternoon =p
here's something i copied from a Facebook page.. some are really quite apt .. well.. some are quite extreme.. apparently ID students lead quite the same lives all over... :p [oh those marked red are what i'm already doing.. cos my life's kinda.. weird anyway]
You know you are a Product Designer Student when..
when the mouse hiding in your wall cavity at home, has more of a social life than you do....
when the last thing you think about at night, and the first thing you think about in the morning, is model making and deadlines...
when you know the cleaners by their first name....
when your housemates say to you good morning, and you say goodnight!...
when you spend so much money at the materials shop,you can't afford to pay attention...
When all your Christmas presents are wrapped inunused A0 CAD drawings...
when your parents have more of a social life than you do...
when you get on better with your tutors than you do with your housemates...
when you collect random pieces of rubbish, in case they help you with model making....
when you spend more more hours in the studio, than you do in your bed...
when you get excited at the prospect of 'pulling an all nighter' to get ahead with your projects....
when you tell the time based on people leaving the studio...
You are an expert and Photoshop, illustrator and auto cad but u don't know how to use MS excel...
your friends get more sleep in one night than you do in one week. ..
You consider 3AM an early night...
the only building on campus with its lights on is your studios'....
you say "It's only midnight- I have plenty of time to finish." ...
you confuse sunrise with sunset....
you ask what time it is, then ask "AM or PM?" ...
you strangle your roommate because she said she stayed up late studying. ...
your Friday night is 68 hours long....
you slice your finger, and the first thing you think of is if you'll be able to finish your model....
you wake up to go to uni and you're already there. ...
you refer to outside studio as the "Real World." ...
you confuse today and tomorrow....
you hear "Didn't you wear that yesterday?' followed by "and the day before that?" ...
you roommate files a Missing Person Report....
you count the number of days (not hours) you've been awake. ...
concept of time is not forward, but a count down from the time a project is due ("What time is it?""4hours 'till")....
you contemplate dropping your major 3 times a day....
you have a tent pitched in studio, but still don't go to sleep......
when u spark up a conversation in a pub, about how the ash tray is manufactured........
when the smell of burnt blue foam means home....
You don't consider saved up pounds and pennys as beer money but money to spend on more materials
when you have more mechanical pencils, unusually sized sheets of paper, and hand tools than stolen pint glasses and empty bottles adorning your window ledge...
when you feel strangley lost after project hand-ins.
You convert your own bathroom into a spray shop...
when after project hand-ins, your lack of stress worries you.
when you can't help but point out when something is a bad design and how you could redesign it to make it better...
When the word alias means long nights of frustration,annoyance, dispair, anger, sadness and ultimately failure
When you can't imagine life without polly filler...
when someone dents your blue foam model and you feel like taking your stanley knife to their neck.
when you knod politely and say hmmm when someone tries to 'improve' your design, when actually you want to tell them their ideas are sh*t.
when you have 10 minuets before your deadline and your still in staples getting the mammoth of a so called design report bound.
when filler primer is your last hope.
when someone asks to borrow your ruler and pencil.
when your sick of saying the word.. form, function,aesthetics and ergonomics.
when your walking down the street trying to think ofthe next big thing.
when you buy a new toothbrush just so that your current toothbrush can be an old toothbrush forpolishing stuff
when you set your alarm clock to remind you to stop working and eat
When you can no longer relish lie-ins, instead you find yourself getting up, cursing that you've already'wasted' 2 hours of project time....
you can't get to sleep at night till 2am because you had to sketch out and idea that came to you whilst you were worrying about a project.
when you go home after your first year and you can't hold a conversation with anyone because all you can talk about is Materials, Manufacture and Technology.
When you think I've handed in a project, time to party and have a life again... only to be given ANOTHER project with EVEN MORE WORK in it the next day! okaez.. but of course, it's not so scary, u'll still haf a life .. dun quit the course so soon..
ahaha.. =] have fun~
here's something i copied from a Facebook page.. some are really quite apt .. well.. some are quite extreme.. apparently ID students lead quite the same lives all over... :p [oh those marked red are what i'm already doing.. cos my life's kinda.. weird anyway]
You know you are a Product Designer Student when..
when the mouse hiding in your wall cavity at home, has more of a social life than you do....
when the last thing you think about at night, and the first thing you think about in the morning, is model making and deadlines...
when you know the cleaners by their first name....
when your housemates say to you good morning, and you say goodnight!...
when you spend so much money at the materials shop,you can't afford to pay attention...
When all your Christmas presents are wrapped inunused A0 CAD drawings...
when your parents have more of a social life than you do...
when you get on better with your tutors than you do with your housemates...
when you collect random pieces of rubbish, in case they help you with model making....
when you spend more more hours in the studio, than you do in your bed...
when you get excited at the prospect of 'pulling an all nighter' to get ahead with your projects....
when you tell the time based on people leaving the studio...
You are an expert and Photoshop, illustrator and auto cad but u don't know how to use MS excel...
your friends get more sleep in one night than you do in one week. ..
You consider 3AM an early night...
the only building on campus with its lights on is your studios'....
you say "It's only midnight- I have plenty of time to finish." ...
you confuse sunrise with sunset....
you ask what time it is, then ask "AM or PM?" ...
you strangle your roommate because she said she stayed up late studying. ...
your Friday night is 68 hours long....
you slice your finger, and the first thing you think of is if you'll be able to finish your model....
you wake up to go to uni and you're already there. ...
you refer to outside studio as the "Real World." ...
you confuse today and tomorrow....
you hear "Didn't you wear that yesterday?' followed by "and the day before that?" ...
you roommate files a Missing Person Report....
you count the number of days (not hours) you've been awake. ...
concept of time is not forward, but a count down from the time a project is due ("What time is it?""4hours 'till")....
you contemplate dropping your major 3 times a day....
you have a tent pitched in studio, but still don't go to sleep......
when u spark up a conversation in a pub, about how the ash tray is manufactured........
when the smell of burnt blue foam means home....
You don't consider saved up pounds and pennys as beer money but money to spend on more materials
when you have more mechanical pencils, unusually sized sheets of paper, and hand tools than stolen pint glasses and empty bottles adorning your window ledge...
when you feel strangley lost after project hand-ins.
You convert your own bathroom into a spray shop...
when after project hand-ins, your lack of stress worries you.
when you can't help but point out when something is a bad design and how you could redesign it to make it better...
When the word alias means long nights of frustration,annoyance, dispair, anger, sadness and ultimately failure
When you can't imagine life without polly filler...
when someone dents your blue foam model and you feel like taking your stanley knife to their neck.
when you knod politely and say hmmm when someone tries to 'improve' your design, when actually you want to tell them their ideas are sh*t.
when you have 10 minuets before your deadline and your still in staples getting the mammoth of a so called design report bound.
when filler primer is your last hope.
when someone asks to borrow your ruler and pencil.
when your sick of saying the word.. form, function,aesthetics and ergonomics.
when your walking down the street trying to think ofthe next big thing.
when you buy a new toothbrush just so that your current toothbrush can be an old toothbrush forpolishing stuff
when you set your alarm clock to remind you to stop working and eat
When you can no longer relish lie-ins, instead you find yourself getting up, cursing that you've already'wasted' 2 hours of project time....
you can't get to sleep at night till 2am because you had to sketch out and idea that came to you whilst you were worrying about a project.
when you go home after your first year and you can't hold a conversation with anyone because all you can talk about is Materials, Manufacture and Technology.
When you think I've handed in a project, time to party and have a life again... only to be given ANOTHER project with EVEN MORE WORK in it the next day! okaez.. but of course, it's not so scary, u'll still haf a life .. dun quit the course so soon..
ahaha.. =] have fun~
Friday, May 16, 2008
I wanna thank my faithful scissors, pen knife, super glue and pencil for accompanying me over those few sleepless nights.
Thank you 98.7 FM for grooving my nights away..
and a big THANK YOU for daddy who was really there for me all the way till 5am on the crucial day ;) Love you lots, you're the best dad!
Funny thing a P1 gal said
Q: Why is it called Mother Earth and not Father Earth?
A: Becos there are are more mothers than fathers.
I must be crazy to spend 70 bucks on PC games. [ but I finally had some interest to do something I like.. so I guess that's a good thing]
Made 2 new friends. Hi Gabriel! Hi Azi! =] welcome to my life.
Bought a new solar powered toy cos the first one got stolen
watched happy feet! I love da guy.. he's so cute =]
'you don't have to be beautiful, to turn me on.. I jus need ur body from dusk till dawn'
ahaha.. nice show =]
I love purple roses!! meaning: I will always love and adore you [so sweet]
I can't wait for my birthday.. cos I can get a new lappy and school starts around then
I'm happy that I made lil' improvements in people's life
ok. randomness stops here =] thank you =D
Thank you 98.7 FM for grooving my nights away..
and a big THANK YOU for daddy who was really there for me all the way till 5am on the crucial day ;) Love you lots, you're the best dad!
Funny thing a P1 gal said
Q: Why is it called Mother Earth and not Father Earth?
A: Becos there are are more mothers than fathers.
I must be crazy to spend 70 bucks on PC games. [ but I finally had some interest to do something I like.. so I guess that's a good thing]
Made 2 new friends. Hi Gabriel! Hi Azi! =] welcome to my life.
Bought a new solar powered toy cos the first one got stolen
watched happy feet! I love da guy.. he's so cute =]
'you don't have to be beautiful, to turn me on.. I jus need ur body from dusk till dawn'
ahaha.. nice show =]
I love purple roses!! meaning: I will always love and adore you [so sweet]
I can't wait for my birthday.. cos I can get a new lappy and school starts around then
I'm happy that I made lil' improvements in people's life
ok. randomness stops here =] thank you =D
Friday, May 09, 2008
I know I haven't been following the news.. but it seems that every time I open the papers, I see suffering and sense grief. It's kinda saddening to see that all the time. I've always lived a life of my own, apathetic to everything that doesn't concern me directly. It's not that I don't want to care.. what can I do? I guess being trapped all my life doesn't help that much. I need liberation from my own sufferings before I can liberate others, no?
Life, death, experiences.. why?
Even as I study and go through everything, I don't feel that it's my calling. [or is that something one makes up?]
Where's that sense of purpose..?
Bye. I'm hiding in my shell again. =] It's a safe place, without pain and suffering.
Life, death, experiences.. why?
Even as I study and go through everything, I don't feel that it's my calling. [or is that something one makes up?]
Where's that sense of purpose..?
Bye. I'm hiding in my shell again. =] It's a safe place, without pain and suffering.
Monday, May 05, 2008
Despite tears and my strongest desire to be there, I could not get to my family for three days because the only ticket I could afford required a three day advance purchase. No available credit on my maxed out Visa, no savings, and not an extra dime in the checking account. Sadly, I didn't even have anything of value to pawn.
For three days, I constantly called my family, asking repeatedly, "How is Dad? How is Dad? Tell him that I am coming. Please tell him that I will be there."
I could hardly eat, I was restless, I was crying, and I was devastated that I was stranded somewhere so from from my dad. The sense of helplessness was greater than I have ever known. My family was in shock and I was a thousand miles away, but it might as well have been a million miles. Finding $600 to reach them immediately was an impossible task. Being alone and realizing my financial situation made matters much worse.
When I finally made it home, my arrival was bittersweet. Dad was out of pain, no longer incapacitated by a stroke. But, I did not have the chance to tell him I loved him, I did not have the opportunity to lay my head by his beating heart, and I could no longer clasp his aged, worn hand safely between mine. Tears flowed and I knew in my heart he was still the best dad I'd ever had.
After an incredible celebration of Dad's life, I headed to the airport for the lonely flight home. Gazing out the plane window, I looked at the big fluffy clouds fully expecting to see my dad dancing in the heavens. At this point, I made a commitment to be like him: free, beholden to no one, in bondage to nothing.
[no, my dad is still alive. but each time I'm upset, I'll think of all the wonderful things we shared. It means so much more than the things we quarrel about.. =] love those who really care about you. these people are hard to come by.]
For three days, I constantly called my family, asking repeatedly, "How is Dad? How is Dad? Tell him that I am coming. Please tell him that I will be there."
I could hardly eat, I was restless, I was crying, and I was devastated that I was stranded somewhere so from from my dad. The sense of helplessness was greater than I have ever known. My family was in shock and I was a thousand miles away, but it might as well have been a million miles. Finding $600 to reach them immediately was an impossible task. Being alone and realizing my financial situation made matters much worse.
When I finally made it home, my arrival was bittersweet. Dad was out of pain, no longer incapacitated by a stroke. But, I did not have the chance to tell him I loved him, I did not have the opportunity to lay my head by his beating heart, and I could no longer clasp his aged, worn hand safely between mine. Tears flowed and I knew in my heart he was still the best dad I'd ever had.
After an incredible celebration of Dad's life, I headed to the airport for the lonely flight home. Gazing out the plane window, I looked at the big fluffy clouds fully expecting to see my dad dancing in the heavens. At this point, I made a commitment to be like him: free, beholden to no one, in bondage to nothing.
[no, my dad is still alive. but each time I'm upset, I'll think of all the wonderful things we shared. It means so much more than the things we quarrel about.. =] love those who really care about you. these people are hard to come by.]
Saturday, May 03, 2008
You are Barefoot! |
 You're a total free spirit, go with the flow girl You can't be restricted by shoes for very long And unsuprisingly, the same goes for men Your match is out there - and he's as carefree as you are |
What's Important to You... And What Isn't: |
 For you, sex is usually your number one priority. You don't mind having things to get done... as long as they don't pile up on you. Your most important priorities get your attention. You are happily able to let the less important things slide. You want thinking to be a high priority, but you don't take enough time for yourself. |
um.. seriously?!
Your Personality at 35,000 Says... |
 Deep down, you prefer spending time alone to spending time with others. You enjoy thinking more than talking. You are good with your place in the world. You are confident and comfortable with who you are. Your gift is having good ears. You are naturally musical, and you pick up foreign languages easily. You are inspired by what is possible. Real life is often too ordinary for you. It's very easy for you to feel happy. You can find peace with any situation. |
Guys Think You're Easy to Be With... But Not Easy |
 You're definitely a flirt - and a good one. But you also know that you shouldn't make a move on any cute guy who passes by. You save your seductive moves for someone who already knows the real you. That way, your sex appeal is just part of the whole package. |
You are a Career Girl! |
 You may not be a CEO yet, but you're well on your way to success. You take your career seriously, and you wouldn't stop working for any guy! An independent woman, you pay for your own car, clothes, and housing. And men appreciate that - at least, the ones as driven as you are. |
You Are a Chimera |
 You are very outgoing and well connected to many people. Incredibly devoted to your family and friends, you find purpose in nurturing others. You are rarely alone, and you do best in the company of others. You are incredibly expressive, and people are sometimes overwhelmed by your strong emotions. |
well.. sorry for affecting some of the people in my life when I get really cranky..=p
You Should Be an Artist |
 You are incredibly creative, spontaneous, and unique. No one can guess what you're going to do next, but it's usually something amazing. You can't deal with routine, rules, or structure. You're easily bored. As long as you are able to innovate and break the rules, you are extremely successful. You do best when you: - Can work by yourself - Can express your personality in your work You would also be a good journalist or actor. |
Your Inner Color is Yellow |
 Your Personality: Life's too short not to have fun. Your bright energy brings joy and laughter to those around you. You in Love: A total flirt, you need a lot of freedom to play. But you'll be loyal to that one person who makes you feel safe. Your Career: You love variety in a job, and you probably won't stick with one career. You would make a great professor, writer, or actor. |
Men See You As Desirable |
 Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual You're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily |
Your Relationship is Strong |
 You've built the foundation of a great relationship, and it would take a lot to shake it. Through good communication and respect, you have a true love that can last a lifetime. |
Friday, May 02, 2008
Feeling really dreadful these days... I'm only functioning on minimum energy levels.. I dunno why I'm always feeling depressed or upset or entertaining negative thoughts. I just can't see anything good these days. =_= tired.
I can't find a sense of meaning or purpose. Just wasting my life away. There are things I want to do but I always get obstructed in some way. Sigh. Don't tell me it's up to me to move away the obstacles. It's not like I didn't try hard enough.
Wonder how long I have to endure this kind of life.
I can't find a sense of meaning or purpose. Just wasting my life away. There are things I want to do but I always get obstructed in some way. Sigh. Don't tell me it's up to me to move away the obstacles. It's not like I didn't try hard enough.
Wonder how long I have to endure this kind of life.
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