VENUS IN LIBRA (DIGNITY).Appearances are important and these people rely on making a good impression through pleasant behaviour and attractive clothes. They need to be liked and fear arguments and disagreements. Dependence on the latest fashions can result from a lack of emotional confidence. Their expectations of relationships can be too high. These people are often shy socially. They make few close friends because most people do not match up to their high standards. Their criticism of other people can be unjustified and result from their own lack of self-confidence. They should learn to trust their own feelings.
VENUS in Libra is in her own house and, on the whole, stronger even than she is in Taurus. The only drawback to her excellence comes from the airy nature of the sign, which, conflicting with her earthy disposition tends to diminish her domesticity. It is also important to note that Saturn is exalted in Libra, and in dealing with the aspects of Saturn and Venus it is shown how generally sinister is his effect upon her. In this sign, the Venus quality tends to be {283} mysterious and bizarre, and suffers dark and inexplicable perversions. The ordinary bourgeois is usually very afraid of people having her in this position. She is too fine and subtle for the average man. The amatory side of Venus is not obvious; the feeling is refined into aestheticism. People with this position, however, often possess sincere affection, but it is important to express such affection more on the mental and spiritual planes than on others. The limitations of marriage are keenly felt. On the artistic side this is the best sign for Venus. She gives a magnificent sense of proportion, harmony and color, which can amount to genius. Vulgarity and blatancy are very distasteful, and uncongenial surroundings cause extreme unhappiness,and upset the nervous system. With all this there is a great love of simplicity in art. The Egyptian, Grecian and Chinese styles are preferred to the flamboyant and rococo.
Thus we see that, when Venus is in Libra, love is nearly always more and less than love, as understood by the average man. It is, to some extent, a religion, possessing its own ritual. Where disappointment occurs, the feeling is not that of a wounded heart, but rather as if a blasphemy had been uttered, or a crime against God committed. At times, the religious feeling in connection with this matter amounts almost to fetichism. This attitude often causes the native to dread the commonplace exceedingly, and, endeavoring to avoid that Scylla, he may be devoured by the Charybdis of the abnormal. Perversity of one sort or another is consequently common. This may not be actual vice -- it results from refinement, delicacy and imagination.
Venus in this sign is released from earthy bondage. She takes wings and flies. She dwells in realms of air and the worst torture which she can suffer is her enchainment by bodily expression or material condition. Not only is "mariage de convenance" impossible to her, but even true love may be revolting as soon as it takes physical form. It is in some ways not altogether fortunate that so important a branch of life should be thus divorced from what Nature evidently intended as its limitation. Love was originally intended as a mere physical appetite. Its exaltation as amorism, romanticism, mysticism, aestheticism and the rest are super-structured, built upon that basis by the idealism of the Great Architect and His fellow-builders on the aspiring human plane. {284}
The reader must not forget that Saturn is exalted in Libra, and, for this reason, there is much melancholy in the sign, which therefore transforms Venus from her simplicity, frankness and laughter into a subtle, secret, and somewhat austere Goddess, to be worshipped in secret shrines, rather than in the meadows. She is not content with offerings of flowers; she demands human sacrifice.
Of course, this is only a description of the action of this position on a single plane. The escape from flesh may be into many different fallacies. The effect of air, to which element Libra belongs, connects it with intellectuality; not only is it the ideal which is adored, even on the material plane, but the ideal frequently roots itself in devotion to causes of a religious, artistic or humanitarian character. In this connection we may mention the names of Madame Blavatsky, Frances Willard and Christabel Pankhurst.
The attitude of Savonarola towards love has Venus in Libra for its foundation, but, in his case, the planet is afflicted by the conjunction of Saturn within three degrees, while the Moon is square to her. Erasmus, with Jupiter trine, was rendered practically normal by this aid.
We have more characteristic examples still in Edward VII, and Queen Elizabeth. Here the influence of Libra as the judicial sign is very evident. These two monarchs were unquestionably the greatest diplomatists that ever occupied the throne of England. One sees a similar subtlety of judgment in Lord Brougham and Annie Besant. The position has a more obviously physical influence in the careers of Marie Bashkirtseff, Cleo de Merode and Oscar Wilde. But the most powerful illustration of all is afforded by Martin Luther. Here it reached an extraordinarily powerful development, owing to the conjunction of Mars and Jupiter.
Venus is not sufficiently big to bear the whole weight of destiny. No amount of support can make her anything but yielding. Even in the most favorable cases, therefore, there is an element of possible disaster. Sooner or later, the clay pot bumps against the brass pot and is smashed. Louis XVI is a particularly striking instance. All his tact and sympathy failed to meet the situation which confronted him.
Those born with Venus in Libra are extremely careful about their surroundings. Harmony and beauty are as necessary to them {285} as the air they breathe. They are much more particular about the manners of their friends than about their moral standards. They possess great personal dignity and a certain seriousness of attitude toward life which makes them almost pontifical. They possess charm, tact, a gravely sympathetic manner and much real kindness of heart. But they never allow this to degenerate into geniality. They dislike familiarity and do not allow anyone to take liberties with them.
There is a certain gaiety in the disposition, but it is kept below the surface. Frederick MacMonnies had Venus in Libra and his famous "Bacchante" might almost do for an astrological picture of this position at its brightest. There is always the feeling of the dance in Libra, but it is not the vulgar dance which is a mere expression of animal spirits. These exist, and exist strongly, but they are veiled by the religious instinct. The dance is, therefore, a religious dance, a subtle and esoteric ritual "inscrutable to the profane." In its highest expression, therefore, this position of Libra becomes almost divine. The perversities which have already been described may be considered as the trials of a pilgrim. At the end of the journey is the palace of that truth and beauty which are one.

The Leo Wife (July 23 – August 23)
The Leo wife is a splendid woman as far as an ambitious man is concerned. She herself has an aristocratic point of view, and all social graces. She is a great manager and can run an elaborate home, take first place in the local social group, and advance her husband’s business chances by enjoyable entertaining. She attracts people to her home and commands great respect. She is a person whom everyone loves and respects.
The love of a Leo wife is passionate, enduring, and self-sacrificing. These are the most loyal of women, whose whole lives are lived through their deep emotional natures. They give and feel and bestow and bless. Heir families can never show enough gratitude for the wealth of attention lavished upon them, and sometimes appear to lack appreciation for all this loving service. The truth is that no human being could repay the Leo wife’s commitment towards home and husband. While her attitude is lush and generous in the extreme, unless the husband is a very dominant man, this type of wife tends to hen peck the husband.
If the Leo woman is lucky enough to marry a virile, commanding man, all of her good qualities will be reduced to their rightful proportions. She will have the opportunity to exercise her house keeping ability, lead the social group, and put all of her faith and passionate love into her relationship with her husband. A supremely masculine man can supply her with the romantic outlets that her passionate nature requires, without sacrificing her femininity.

Haha.. that's why I love my dad all the time and liked D****e sometimes.. I think I still do actually.. but I know it's quite unlikely we'll ever be..

hoho! Went shopping today and got myself some nice shirts and a watch (mum's terrific at bargaining! :O) . ^_^ of course, the fun part of shopping is trying things that you know you can't afford to buy. It was a fun and tiring day. I saw this really nice maximizer and the price was very nice too.. $79.90. Wow.. so much for a bra. but I think it's worth the money because it provides good support and will really boost one's confidence as a woman. Well, for one thing, it makes your petite round things look bigger =_= that's why it's called a maximizer! lots of padding and very comfortable! =_= again, I sound like some freak advertiser.. *drools.. wow.. wish I'd get that for christmas.. ahaha..[yay.. I promoted from A to B =p]
It's frustrating when it comes to skirts. Nothing seems right for me. Even the assistant was shocked because I'm suppose to wear size 10/12.. but my hips/butt qualifies for 12/14 =_= I HATE MY BUTT. but mum says guys like girls with more butt?! =_= don't know where that come from.

If I had My Child to raise..

I'd build self esteem first and the house later.
I'd finger paint more and point finger less.
I would do less correcting and more connecting.

I'd take my eyes off my watch and watch with my eyes
I would care to know less and know to care more.
I'd take more hikes and fly more kites.
I'd stop playing seriously and seriously play.

I would run through more fields and gaze at more stars
I'd see the oak tree in the acorn more often.
I would be firm less often and affirm much more.

I'd model less about the love of power..
and care about the power of love.

It's not easy to be a parent. It's also not easy to be the child. The key here is love and tolerance.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Atrocious! I'm already patient with people mistaking me as a guy. Fine, I may not be well endowed YET. But it's been a long long time since someone spoke to me in Malay. And so, I was on the bus today and in a mess. I carried 2 bags, one sling and another hand held.. I couldn't find my ez link and looked like some kinda auntie, rummaging through the rubbish in my bag. An old indian lady started talking to me in Malay.. something like teloh sana means 'put there' so, she was asking me to put my bag down. I would get off the bus at the next stop.. so i see no point putting my stuff down. But she kept blabbering in Malay and I still couldn't concentrate on finding my card. So I put my bag down and the next thought that came to my mind was, gosh, did she think that I was a maid? =_= I told her I don't speak malay in English but she continued raining fluent Malay on me. So I guess she doesn't speak English either =_= That's the end of da episode with Sis laughing and me being ridiculed.

Sigh.. I really wonder if I have some Malay blood in me.. something is definitely not right. =_= I'm so dark even though I haven't been in the sun much!

I'm still the little Malay boy that people think I am..

Santi Bovine Penis Erecting Capsule

GUYS. HOW EVER DESPERATE YOU ARE, DON'T EAT IT. YOU MIGHT DIE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ACT.

sigh.. if you can't make it stand, it's ok.. girls are under-standing.. surely there's a way out/up?
for something safer, try a vibrating condom? it helps prevent STDs and is a new exciting experience! =_= ahaha..i sound like some kinda advertiser? oh well, you get what I mean.. just play safe.. don't risk your life, seeking excitement and end up paying with your life plus the pills, right? =]

sorry.. i wonder why I'm so sick today [if you consider it as sick?]

Your Personality Is
Idealist (NF)
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.

Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.

At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

taken from an article in Straits Times

Say the four letter word,

The devil shouts,' Pope',
The Pope frowns and says, 'Hell'
'Porn' growls the Puritans,
'Bush!' screams the Iranians,
'Cops' cries the hooker,
'Jews' say the Palestineans,
For Donald Trump, it's 'Poor'
for the poor, it's 'Limo'
For PAP, 'we have two. 'Oppo' and 'Demo'

We do have freedom
As is clear of our present status..
we can do everything
the government lets us!

[something like that]

The fact that we are growing apolitical.. is not because we don't want to care.. but because we were told not to care and after that, we might forget the need to. A bit worried that Singapore will become a place for business and entertainment, and lose it's identity as a Nation.. because even I would not dare promise to lay my life for this city..kinda sad if a young nation falls like this..in the hands of unscruplous people.

Long time no post =D ok,I was busy helping my sis and earning some good money.. I've been trying to search for my true self.. well, I guess everyone does that but an ENFP is an identity seeker ^_^ so I work harder at that. I tried asking people but I guess it's not very nice when they start praising or criticising you when they may not really know you in the first place..
I guess my true self, under ideal conditions, is someone who loves to play. Everything is a game, with all their rules, and everything has it's risks.. the higher the stakes, the more thrilling it is.. I love love love cats absolutely.. =^.^= I can be super lazy and just do nothing except sleep or watching tv the whole day.. I love music-all sorts except metal/hard rock. I'm daring and impulsive when I don't care what people think or say. That can be good or bad depending on who I'm with. Ok.. I said I shouldn't reveal too much about myself right? These are the least you should know =]

Sigh.. I lost Mr. X today.. Refer to some older posts to know who I'm referring to. Maybe it's all fated. Now that he's gone..I should try to move on..Went for sushi buffet today and funny things happened =D ha.. I love my family

24 relationship questions
1) Single, Taken, or Crushin? - Single/crushing?. 2) Are you happy with where you are? - No.. ahaha
3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast? - I guess I would.
4) Have you ever had your heart broken? - Nope. (unless those encountered while watching tv dramas...)
5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is acceptable? - Yeah. But not cheating on your loved one. Just cheating to get your loved one maybe..
6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? - No! If he can do it once, he can do it again.
7) Have you talked about marriage with another? - With my girlfriends, yes. Haha.
8) Do you want children? - Yeah! Though the thought of them crying non-stop kinda puts me off alittle. But nonetheless...I ever thought of being a surrogate mum..
9) How many? - four is the max. unless we are financially secured and don't mind more company..
10) Would you consider adoption? - Hmmm. If I'm infertile or he's infertile or we just have too much money and feel like getting more kids? yes.
11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way of letting you know? - Tell me directly and give me a little gift? and constant reassurance-so that I know it's not just a joke...
12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get? - Being coy is quite a natural thing but no.. not really.
13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating? - chasing game? I haven't even dated?
14) Do you believe in love at first sight? - Yea..
15) Are you romantic? - Absolutely positive!
16) Do you believe that you can change someone? - maybe..I do.
17) If you could get married anywhere, money not an object where would it be? - Get married first in Singaopore and take a world tour..renewing the vow in every country in different wedding gowns and setting. Interesting, isn't it?
18)What quality must your man have- Tolerance.
19) Do you easily give in when you are fighting? - Depends on what kind of "fighting". But usually, yes. I need some peace.
20) Do you have feelings for someone right now? - Maybe?
21) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you messed it up? - no.
22.) Have you ever broken a heart? - Ermm, yeah I suppose. A couple of few, but I know they'd gotten over it. (:
24.) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other? - no. but I believe you have to fight for your happiness.

Ok, I was bored. Now you know what I want? ^_^

Sigh.. I just recieved news that I didn't get through the olympiad. Sad? A little. Happy? Quite.
People always say that I never finish what I start. I know. Maybe that's why I reap what I sow. Shadows of the past haunt me, I can't imagine the future, I can't focus on the present. Many thoughts run through my mind but I can't put them all down. My weakness.. is telling you my weakness. so I shall be smart and zip up on that ^_^.
Even if I don't want to share about other things today, I want to share this two important things that I have learnt the past 5 days staying away from the com.

Love is selfless.

don't take for granted all the good in your life. Cherish them while you can. Nothing lasts forever here.

It is not easy to trust someone.

actually, I meant that you can trust somebody easily.. but most of the time after you get hurt, you know it's not easy to trust the same person again. And you[ or maybe just me] lose faith in others because anyone is capable of loving and hurting you.

See for yourself.. I haven't changed much.. but some age related gene must have triggered the melanin production in my body.. [forgive me if the photos and words are in a mess.. i'm in no mood to arrange them neatly. haha.. wouldn't do so even if I'm in the mood=P]
hat's me when I didn't know what a camera was [toothy grin ^_^ ahaha.. love my baby teeth..]











that's me trying to behave like a girl.. [looking miserable]











that's me when I know what a camera is and didn't like it. And oh, Jason, do you remember me?











that's me hugging my first teddy.. looks.. uh..weird. I know ^_^















that's me who knows what a camera is and.. likes it for the moment..


See? I'm still me.. Am I that guyish? =_= sigh..

oh, biolympiad should be screwed by the way..or I screwed my up.. oh well I don't like plants!! =_= and poor me for being named after one..

Trying to influence dad to let me get my earrings.. He said it wouldn't make a difference because guys also wear them nowdays =_= very good excuse..

Yesterday[16.11.06]

Me: Hello auntie!

Auntie: Hey boy, what do you want? [pauses and gives an embarassed look]

Me: [Indignant look]

Auntie: sorry sorry

Yea.. it happened again. I was mistaken as a boy. It happened thrice this year.. the first one was when I was in school with Li Sha. I sat really close to her and a maid walked up to us and exclaimed..

In school

Maid: Aiyo! I was thinking why a boy is sitting so close to a girl in school! So you are a girl! -_-

Me: Uh, ya. I'm a girl.[fortunately/ unfortunately?]

Food Stall Auntie: Boy, what can I get for you?

Me: =_=

[similar cases in coffeeshops]

In the toilet

Auntie: Boy, the gents is at the opposite side

Me: [shocked and lost] Uh, I came in to take toilet paper for my mom.. and I'm a GIRL..[blushes and rushed out]

In a drama camp

Mr. Soup[yea, his surname is tang..let's just keep it at that] is the worse case that I've ever had with this gender problem thing.

Mr. Soup: Hey, where're you from?

Me: XinMin, you?

Mr. Soup: Maris Stella [I don't remember which]

We hugged and played together like buddies. I thought we were.. but to be sure..I told him..

Me: Hey.. I'm a girl, you know..

Mr. Soup: What? Don't fake it.. haha [Pulls my shirt..yea, he's checking for ahem..]

Me: Shocked look but ok.. maybe he knows

Mr. Soup: Walked away [he still didn't realise!! :O]

and from there.. things didn't go very well and I lost a potentially good buddy. [he still didn't forgive me for not being super open about it on day one even when we graduated]

I mean, I was really fair when I was young.. Most females prefer to be fair, no? That's why Olay and Garnier whitening sells ^^

Sad to say this, but I've wasted the whole day again.. First, I went mapling for 2 hours and then later on I watched 'Cast Away' for 2 hours. Thank god it was commercial free. Boy, I could have done a lot of work in that 4 hours. It's the second time that I watched the show. First time I watched it, I cried.. But that was a year ago. This time? Nah.. But I learnt 2 things that I probably forgot by now.. Two things that 'Jack' the male lead said that I must start remembering by heart.

1) Never lose track of time. Time waits for no man.. yea.. 4 hours gone just like that..
2) I gotta keep breathing, because the tomorrow the sun will rise.. Who knows what the tide would bring? A reminder to all who wants to give up.. Don't. Because there's always hope, no matter how impossible things may seem..

I still believe that god exists.. So even when there's no hope in humans..
you can still hope in the lord =D

I meant to blog this yesterday but I couldn't find the time to so.. here we go.

Thank you!!! Thank you XY and JJ!! I thought we were celebrating JJ's bdae and it turned out that you 2 came to celebrate mine! Ok, it's a little late but =D aww.. so sweet of you! Yea and so, we sat at the staircase at my void deck and talked about the good old days.. Got scolded by an Auntie who was preparing for some funeral because we were playing with fire :O I joked that she was afraid the incense paper would fly over and catch fire.. oh well. ha.

Thank you so much.. and coincidentally, the astrological report for that day was, Prospects that you thought evaporated, reappeared in your life.. =D

Yay! PW IS OVER! BYE BYE! TAKE CARE! I DON"T WANT TO WORK WITH YOU ANYMORE! Yea.. for this bloody OP, I got up freaking early so that I could reach school at 7am. I'm very tired.. but I too happy to go to bed. ^_^ No more PW! Freaking PW! haha. it's over and it's not screwed.(hopefully) argh.. not a good day to blog about anything else. I want to play!

Went for a jog.. Yea, it's been a while since I last jogged alone round the neighbourhood. Had to sneak out too. Don't ask. Feels good to dissapate heat energy. I used the signs as my checkpoint.. but more importantly, I imagined that I was going not just towards the goal but towards my loved one-dad haha. So it worked.. for long stretches I took 2 minutes per checkpoint on the average..not too bad for a first time. Will keep playing.. and sorry to that someone who asked me to play badminton >.< see if we can do that in school? ;) better chances

I miss my bro..

NOTE TO SELF: DO NOT DO SIT UPS ON METAL BENCHES (ouch.. my head..) =D

Strange.. It's been a long while since I last touched my tarot cards.. Suddenly, I felt drawn to it. So, I decided to do one reading and asked to show me what I needed to know. It spoke what was on my mind. There seem to be some form of an internal struggle and a battle of the head and the heart. I don't know which to trust. There's a decision to make. I have all that I need an my situation requires me to take action. Which path should I take? I have the answer but I'm ignoring it and allowing myself to get distracted. Sigh..the wonders of tarot =D

I don't think it's very harmful.. Tarot hasn't caused any harm..or are there negative externalities? >.<