Magenta Finances
Magentas are members of the Physical (environmental) Family; therefore, they always seem to have a handle on how the world of physical reality operates. They know what they have to do to make money, spend it creatively, and still meet their financial obligations.
Most important, they are able to play with money. Food and shelter are the necessary stage props. But in all else, Magentas need and want to be creative. To a Magenta, those products and ideas that are creative, thought-provoking, or imaginative are the true necessities of life. Magentas are apt to think that a trip to the neighborhood thrift shop is more important than buying salad makings-unless, of course, they are planning a Mexican fiesta and need lettuce for tacos.
Money for a Magenta is the ticket to new experiences, new ideas, and new ways of doing things. Magentas love to travel, to explore other countries, to mix with the people and live among them. They can be seen folk dancing in the town square and learning to speak the local language from children. Magentas are the free spirits of the spectrum and travel with the protection provided charmed individuals.
Magentas can also he practical and down to earth about money. They know the value of a dollar; they just don't want to be tied down by that value system. In their finances, as in all other aspects of their lives, Magentas know the value and meaning of living each moment as it comes. They are not much interested in deferRed gratification, but they have a healthy respect for the here and now.
Magenta Careers
Magentas do well in occupations that have a great deal of flexibility, creativity, and potential for innovative ideas and inventions. They need jobs and careers that require little supervision (such as art therapy with disturbed children) or, conversely, a great deal of supervision (such as acting under a strong director).
The ideal careers for Magentas are those wherein they can make a great deal of money during a short period of concentrated effort. This gives them the financial flexibility to take time off to explore different aspects of themselves and their environment. Any career in the performing arts would serve them nicely. They do especially well in all forms of comedy improvisational, stand-up, and comic acting.
Because they are so ingenious, they can work independently as artists, inventors, or writers. They can take advantage of short, intense periods of creative, fertile solitude. They do not necessarily need the inspiration or motivation that comes from being with others. However, they do need a representative or agent to supervise their work from drawing board to production. They are not interested in the details, but are strongly aware of bottom lines and financial outcomes.
Magentas do well in any career or occupation on the leading edge. Such jobs appeal to their fascination with the bright, the young, and the new. For example, they would be good as art directors, photographers, or designers for slick new magazines. The Magenta would love to investigate, photograph, or sell whatever product or idea is the latest and hottest in clothes, music, people, entertainment, and travel.
Magentas make excellent salespeople, especially when they are selling toys-makeup, clothes, antiques, or concepts. They entice the customer into the fantasy and then make the sales pitch. Because of this ability to live in their fantasy, Magentas also make good entrepreneurs. They are capable of dynamically visualizing success, and then making the imagined goal a reality.

Magenta Social Interactions
Magentas love people. They are the madcaps of the spectrum-full of fun, willing to be outrageous, daring to do the things the rest of us wish we had the courage to do. They entertain with laughter, fin, skits, and foolishness. When you are invited to a Magenta's home, you never know what you will be in for. When they allow their imaginations free rein, a luau on the fire escape of a New York walk-up would not be an impossibility.
The only way to enjoy a Magenta's party, social life, or friendship is to get into the swing of things. Magentas are unpRedictable, nonconforming, and relatively oblivious to rigid social customs. Magentas are without malice; they are not angry, nor are they antisocial. They simply have a different view of life. Often, when the pressure to conform becomes too great, they create their own hilarious backlash. Even when confronted with painful, restrictive childhoods, Magentas intuitively know that laughter is the best medicine. They enjoy the absurdities of life. Only a Magenta would have a pink plastic flamingo as a living room centerpiece.
Magentas find unusual things to see and do wherever they are. The more outrageous the event or activity, the more fun. They love mixing up their realities. When Magentas need a lift, they invite all their friends to attend a silent film and make up a story to go along with the action on the screen.
Magentas make friends wherever they go. Every encounter is an opportunity for them to get to know how others think and feel. Magentas collect a wide spectrum of friends who are as eclectic as their agglomeration of home decorating items. They take comfort in listening to the ways other people break away from their own bonds of conformity. The unifying factor among the friendships and relationships formed by a Magenta is that there is no unifying factor. They collect people with unusual occupations and interests the way some of us collect stamps, appreciating them for their beauty, their art, and their individuality.
Because most of their friends are as footloose as they are, they do not establish the tight bonds of catering that are often taken for granted by other Personality Spectrums colors. That is not to say that Magentas are not considerate or caring. They prefer to be relieved from the pressure (and fear) of confining or stultifying responsibility of caring for another person. Occasionally their feelings get hurt when they think they have been ignored, but hurt feelings are a small price to pay in exchange for being relieved of the burden of responsibility.
Magentas tend to marry often, not out of fickleness or an inability to maintain long-term relationships, but because they feel that when they have learned all the life lessons they can from a given relationship, it is time to move on. They also marry because they know that commitment enhances a couple's opportunity to learn from the experience of being together. Magentas also love to be the guest of honor at a party and what more appropriate party than their own wedding?
Magentas also have a facility for departing from relationships in such a way as to leave the other person emotionally, physically, and spiritually intact. Magentas are not destroyers. They are learners and experimenters; they are the participant observer within a culture of their own creation. They remain friends with their former mates, often regarding them as part of an extended family, so to speak.
Individuals who marry frequently or who have had many serial relationships are not necessarily Magentas. Magentas are distinctive in that they choose their partners carefully for the life lessons a relationship with them offers. In addition, the Magenta's partners are usually aware that the relationship, even though they have gone through a marriage ceremony, is not necessarily permanent.

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Magenta Emotional Approach to Life
The greatest problem for Magentas is loneliness. Few people can tolerate the skewed perspective so natural for a Magenta. When they attempt to conform, Magentas lose touch with what makes life worth living for them, and this often plunges them into deep despair. Female Magentas are often programmed by society to believe that the fastest road to happiness lies in being like a Blue-the natural caretaker of the spectrum. However, for Magenta women this is the fastest road to madness. Magentas are basically loners. They don't mean to be and they are not always pleased that they have difficulty finding compatible mates and partners. However, their work habits, living arrangements, and restless energy make it difficult for them to create and foster long-term loving relationships. Their lives are often filled with happy chances or disastrous snafus and miscommunications. They neither want nor need to be organized, and this trait keeps some potential mates away. A Magenta needs to ask this question when beginning a relationship: How much confusion and disorganization is too much? Until a Magenta can answer that question, a relationship will last only as long as the other individual's ability to tolerate ambiguity. Their quicksilver vibrancy, eclectic ideas, and outrageous solutions to simple problems make Magentas attractive and fun to be with. However, living all of life on the brink can be tiring for most of the other Personality Spectrums colors. When one is courting, coleslaw for dinner at 3:00 A.M. is the stuff of memories. But for a Magenta, that's life. The question they ask is: Doesn't everyone eat dinner at 3:OOam? Emotionally, Magentas are reacting to the confinement of their parents' expectations: get good grades, clean your room, make a few good friends, and participate in school, church, or neighborhood activities. To the Magenta, these requirements seem like life sentences, as crippling to their personality as the Chinese foot-binding custom would be to their feet. These children need to explore their environment and interact dynamically with it. These are the children who want to try something just because it is there. Magentas may conform temporarily in order to please their parents. When they go out on their own, however, they will explore the limits of their tangible reality. One of the first things they do is to choose extreme hairstyles in hairdo and clothing. But their extremes are zany rather than ugly or bizarre. They love authentic innovation, and are especially good at showing fads for what they are-mindless. Magentas will take various fad garments and combine them in such a way as to make a new statement. Their fashion sense is one of fun, not anger. Magentas can swing between high and low moods. The highs are expressions of freedom, sense of self, acceptance, and creativity. The lows result from trying to please others, loss of sense of self, and finding no way out of a mundane or humdrum existence. They can lessen the severity of these mood swings by choosing careers or occupations that allow or even encourage them to develop their own style. Artistic pursuits-sign painting, staging of rock bands, performing as a mime or a clown - offer opportunities to build a bridge between the inner reality of the self and the outer reality of society. They can also choose to live in those parts of the country or world where they are less conspicuous in their uniqueness. A Magenta in a small town will have more difficulty than a Magenta in San Francisco or New York City.

Magenta Spiritual Approach to Life
As the nonconformists of the spectrum, Magentas are unwilling to be bound by any convention, set of rules, or code of laws regulating behavior, attitudes, or beliefs. Magentas will only stay involved with a system or organization as long as they are free to come and go as they please, taking what they need and returning when they need replenishment or renewal.
]Magentas, as one of the Physical (environmental) Personality Spectrums colors, have a strong connection to the earth. Religious practices that are too mental or emotional do not appeal to Magentas. They need to be grounded in their spirituality; they prefer outdoor services or activities that put them in direct communion with nature.
Magentas have a close connection with nature because plants and animals make no demands on them other than that they be allowed to coexist. Magentas find solace in nature, an acceptance of who they are at the core. Walks in the woods or the park and planting, tending, or harvesting crops are ways in which Magentas express their spirituality. Any retreat facility would do well to have a Magenta on staff-to tend to the ecology and to educate guests and participants in the relationship between nature, humanity, and spirituality.
Magentas are reluctant to join any church or organization. They are unwilling to commit themselves for fear of being tied down. They resent demands being made on them that they cannot be sure of fulfilling. Like the other Physical (environment) colors, Magentas can be depended upon once they give their word-but they do not often give their word. They prefer to keep all their options open, to be able to come and go within a group or an organization as they feel the need to learn and grow. They prefer loosely knit organizations to those that are more rigidly structured because they like to feel that the door is open for them.
For Magentas, religious services and rituals need to be more practical and utilitarian than those offered by most religions. For all their zaniness, Magentas can be very down-to-earth. They see the value in the cycle of the seasons, with the attendant duties and responsibilities within each season. Through the enactment of ritual, they can attune their lives to the seasons. By being able to concentrate on metaphysical as well as physical concerns, Magentas can maintain balance and emotional stability in their lives. This sense of balance in turn gives them a centeredness, a sense of who they are and what their purpose in life is.

Magenta Leadership
The Magentas' personal power lies in their willingness to set their own rules no matter the ramifications, since conforming to social norms and expectations is so physically painful for them. Their solution is to move to places, usually large cities, where their uniqueness can be absorbed in the milieu and where they can blend into the cityscape. They choose friends who appreciate their alternative view of life, and they avoid people who insist on doing things the way they have always been done. Magentas don't care how things have always been done. In fact, that is no recommendation at all to the Magentas. Their response is Why?" For them, change is the essence of being; change allows them to feel safe and in control of their environment. Whereas most colors need a sense of familiarity in their lives, to Magentas sameness is death, not safety.
Magentas are not leaders in the accepted sense of the word. They are not organized, nor do they have the dynamic personal power and charisma we associate with good leaders. Instead, Magentas lead by showing us the stagnation in our lives. By painting larger-than-life cans of tomato soup, Andy Warhol asked us to reconsider what we regard as important. Magentas lead by understanding what they experience on the inner planes of their psyches. They then have the courage to act on that information, making portions of their environment conform to their view of their inner space. Magentas are not rebellious, nor is their creative expression especially angry. They simply see reality differently than most people do, and they attempt to somehow bring their environment into harmony and balance with their internal perspective.

Magentas are jesters. They are zany, spontaneous, offbeat, outrageous, physical, innovative, in the here-and-now, inventors, attention-seekers. Sometimes they're loners.
The key to understanding the Magenta Personality Spectrum’s color is their unwillingness to conform to the expectations and norms set by society. These individuals seek to express their individuality by using, with creativity and flair, the belongings and raw materials at their disposal. Because they look at life through a Magenta filter, they tend to be viewed as the nonconformists of the spectrum.
The single most difficult thing for a Magenta is to understand the difference between commitment and entrapment. For a Magenta to be locked into a nine-to-five job, to be married and have children, and to run a household, would be a form of insanity. They need to learn to create for themselves a lifestyle that works for them and does not impinge on the sensibilities of others. Magentas revitalize our concept of creativity by offering a new perspective, opening new vistas and exploring new points of departure.

Magenta Physical Approach to Life
Reds want to subdue reality, and Oranges want to conquer it; Magentas want to push physical reality to the leaky margins - that locale where fantasy and reality become a blur. Magentas consider life worth living only if they can listen to their own inner drummer. They live on the edge, creating three-dimensional physical environment in their mind's eye that is very different from the one we experience in our day-to-day existence.
Magentas create in the physical environment in ways that are similar to those of their sister Personality Spectrums colors, Red and Orange. They prefer products to abstractions. Magentas work with the tangible but creative material aspects of the world. They find their greatest satisfaction when manipulating, working with, changing, or building something real and specific. So much the better if it is outrageous, off-the-wall and controversial.
Their innovative, creative, fertile minds lead them to explore the unusual, bizarre, arty, or trendy. Their nonconformity allows them to skew their perspective on the world, making them unique. Out of this new, fresh perspective comes the gift of this color, creating experiences that allow the rest of us to see the world from an alternative point of view. It is as if the Magentas ask us to put on three-D glasses, turning our flat two-dimensional world into one with depth and perspective. Everyday life looks quite different.
Magentas are outrageous, and they prefer it that way. They take pride in their refusal to adapt to any of society's mechanisms of lockstep thinking or behavior. By creating a totally original point of view, Magentas give us an opportunity to laugh at ourselves. They encourage us to find ways to express our own divergent individuality by expressing their own.

Magenta Mental Approach to Life
Magentas have bright, agile minds-fleet as quicksilver. However, they are unwilling to master acres of boring details. They become experts in the field that interests them, or in which they might choose to make a living. But if they do not see much need for information, they refuse to clutter their minds with inessential details. Like the other Physical (environmental) colors, the Magentas are strong-willed and determined about the things they regard as important. They are eclectic in their learning. They can be excellent students when the subject interests them or they see a need to learn about it. Otherwise a Magenta will move heaven and earth to create a diversion-preferably one that entertains the entire class. School subjects that appeal to inquiring minds, taught by teachers who are flexible and creative, are ideally suited to a Magenta. Magentas do well in drama, English, debate, forensics, the arts, science, if allowed to "play" in the tabs), physical education, and crafts such as woodworking and welding.
Magentas need to develop the ability to stay with a project until it is completed. Each new project is like a silver lure, sparkling and twisting through the water, distracting the attention of the Magentas from what they are supposed to be doing. Learning to finish a job is one of the most difficult challenges for a Magenta. Short projects that are easy to bring to conclusion build confidence and pride in the Magenta. Once the Magenta experiences the satisfaction of accomplishment. it becomes easier for him or her to stay focused for longer and longer periods of time. This is one of the major skills necessary to the Magentas' happiness and well-being-it allows them a wider range of career choices and a greater chance of success.
Their mental process appears to be haphazard when, in fact, most Magentas have a very clear idea of what they want to create, say, or do. Because their nature is to stretch the limits of everything they encounter-products, social customs, mores, relationships, and standards by which most of us judge and evaluate our reality-Magentas are constantly searching for new and different ways to use everyday items. Many Magentas are inventors of those handy gadgets that the rest of us couldn't get along without. They are continually fascinated by what is in the marketplace.

Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star

I dunno why i try so hard to get certain things that don't really mean much to me. I dun even know what really should matter. Does anything matter? Why does anything matter when we're all going to die anyway. why do we do the things we do, choose the things we choose, even if it hurts?

Hi people! I'm back! Feeling somewhat UNSTRESSED! Can you believe it? I'm not stressed. Yes I have lots of work to do.. But I'm not freaked out about it. Maybe it's the HOLIDAYS that are coming. ahahaha..

Today, I'm gonna talk about IDENTITY. Identity is not easy to understand. I mean, I don't really know what MY identity is. Is it an image I create and try to follow? Or maybe it's the environment or genes?

So I guess I'm constantly searching, seeking my true identity[is there such a thing?]

So far, I'd like to think myself as someone who is capable of great things. I'm optimistic and will do what it takes to get what I want.

I love to spend a lot.. sometimes on impulse. But it's not the items that I buy but the power to spend and to get a target [I guess I have that hunter instinct like guys]

I love to buy pens, pencils, pencil cases and all sorts of stationery! I think they are really cool for collection and use? Yea, I'm a penaholic. haha. I love pencil cases.. they come in all different forms and shapes and colours. And tells a lot about the owner.

I'm interested in wicca.. it's really a peaceful, environmental-loving religion =]

Here are some stuff I bought today..

Food above all! Yummy double chocolate stuff from chewy junior at bugis junction!

Plastic-feeling shoes from bugis street. Looks quite simple and sweet [Like the new owner =D]

V light weight shoes also from the same shop. Nice and comfy. Retro feeling. 10 bucks per pair!

Cheap watch. 5 bucks. But I like the mix of roman and numerical.. it's kinda showing there's a change in way of representation. Also the feel of the metallic strap is different from the norm.

In short, I love changes for the sake of changes. It gives me a new idea, a new way of looking at things. And im curious about how things can be. =]

So.. Bye bye shoes.. bye bye nike watch...

haha.. i watched wall-E this week..it's so sweet and funny! go catch guys!


Here's a short clip

Yup.. was just reading about some friendship stuff.. I think it's nice to have guy friends? But seriously, my best gal friend still understands me better. Ha.. is it really a gender thing?

They say the best relationships develop when two people start out as friends first. After all, if you have a platonic relationship with someone, you get to know them on a much more meaningful level, one that isn’t based on sex. Friendships do have the possibility of developing into something more, but there are a few things to consider before you decide to kick it up a notch.
Determine Where the Feelings Are Coming From
It’s important to understand why feelings for your friend have deepened. Have you just come out of another relationship and are now feeling lonely? Are you having problems in your current relationship? Is your friend in a new relationship that has you feeling a bit jealous for their time? Be honest about the origin of your feelings. You may suddenly think you are in love with your friend, only to fall out of that feeling when your life begins to settle down. Don’t announce the way you feel to your friend until you’re sure your feelings are for real.
Talk to Your Friend
If you both begin having feelings for each other, talking about them becomes much easier. If you don’t know how your friend feels, however, you may be embarrassed to bring the subject up, for fear of rejection. But the longer you hold in your true feelings, the more awkward things will be in the long run. Approach your friend honestly, but be cautious. Your friend may not share your feelings, and if that’s the case, it might be a bit embarrassing. But if your friend is really your friend, you both will get through it and talk about whether moving your relationship up to the next level is the right decision.
Forgive Your Friend If They Don’t Feel the Same Way
You have to remember that you have had time to process the feelings you have, but when you first bring it up to your friend, it may come as quite a surprise. Your friend may laugh or even freak out a bit. Let them deal with the information in their own way. Don’t pressure them or make them feel bad if they don’t share your feelings. They may, of course, have unrealized feelings for you too but have never wanted to really think about it. Give your friend space to consider the feelings you have for them. It may take some time.
The Friendship Will Change, and Might Even End
Many pals are hesitant about changing their relationship because they don’t want to lose the companionship they both share. This is a very real fear, because emotions combined with sexual intimacy will change the bond you have. There’s no question about it. However, when one of you begins having feelings for the other, the relationship has already changed. You can’t alter how you feel, but you can’t ignore it either. Like any relationship, good communication is the key to keeping you both on good terms. By talking things through you’ll be able to weather this latest development, and regardless of the outcome, maintain your strong bond.

haha.. can finally take a breather..

Thanks to sha, jan and ben [and others along the way] for the encouraging me all the time.. I survived a month in archi!!!
haha... yea.. hope you guys will continue to be by my side..

thanks for being such nice and good friends. Can't carry on happily without you guys. *hugs

jas

lt's been awhile since I last slept on my bed.. miss my bolster and pillow. Stayed up till7am to complete a totally handmade book. It's not the best but it's fun. Crashed on sofa when I got home at 6.. Got up at 3 today. Ha.. ok gotta start work! =) *hugs I miss going out witu friends..

You think it's quite easy? Lol.. it took me nearly 2 hours I think.. I drew all 20 circles with equilateral triangles in them.. man.. it's the first time I'm such a super neat freak. It looks rather pretty. This is the simplest 'dome' inspired by Buckminster Fuller. Yea, he's the guy who made bucky balls? lol.. This is a one frequency dome as far as I know.. but it looks like some kinda lantern thing you see during Chinese New Year? =D

going for lecture..

Ha, here's my final model for submision tomorrow, it's not the best.. in fact, it's pretty simple. I've seen others with more complicated and pretty ones. =] But this is my work.. and I should be proud of my own work yea? =] it's quite decent looking ^_^

http://www.boingboing.net/2008/08/28/winged-cats-discover.html

so cute.. =]

I Didn't Kiss You

Jennifer, why do you have to go away for three days?
Three days before I see you again it’s too long I can’t wait.
Know how I feel right now? I’m short of breathe, got an ache.
I wanna touch you, wanna hold your hand, see your smilin face
My head is floating, the room is spinning.
When you’re talking I just watch and listen.
I dream about you even when I’m with you. S
hould I pinch myself? I’d rather pinch you.
I want to touch my lips to your soft shoulder skin.
When you enter a room I feel you come in.
I can’t focus on what I’m doing.
My way I want to see you moving.
I melt when you come over to flirt.
Can’t you see my heart beat right through my shirt.
But then last night when you whispered goodbye, you leaned in and closed your eyes.


But I didn’t kiss you! Why didn’t I kiss you!!?I didn’t kiss you! Why didn’t I kiss you!!?


Don’t want to seem too enthusiastic.
Don’t want to get my emotional ass kicked.
You’re an amazing woman, I’m a fucking spastic.
After the first time we went out to eat.
You wanted to dance in the middle of the street
.And you were laughing at my two left feet.
You leaned in for a closer dance. I had the perfect, most obvious chance.


But I didn’t kiss you. AHHHH! Why didn’t I kiss you?I didn’t kiss you! Why didn’t I kiss you!!?


I asked a friend, hey, what should I say?
She said forget it this girl already thinks you’re gay.
NOOOO! I just freeze when I get too close to her face.
Well, she probably thinks you’re not interested, anyway,


Cause, I didn’t kiss you. No. No. Why didn’t I kiss you?I didn’t kiss you! Why didn’t I kiss you!!?

The next time I see you, I'm just gonna kiss you.
The next time I see you I’ll kiss you for the first time.
Next time I see you, I’m gonna walk right up to you.
The next time I see you I’ll put my heart on the line.
But that’s scary. What if you don’t respond? Oh God.
I don’t think I can take that kind of rejection.
I got a better idea. How about. How about. How about.

The next time you see me you just come up and kiss me.
The next time you see me you kiss me for the first time.
Next time you see me, you just walk right up to me.
The next time you see me, it’d be a load off my mind.


I hate that awkward moment right before the first kiss.
Why do I get so nervous that it builds up to this.
Just dive in head first, get the kiss over with.
I hope that my song doesn’t come on too strong.
If I give it to you I hope that I’m not wrong for expressing my frustration and insecurity.
If it makes you run away that it made a fool of me.
But if it makes you want to stay maybe it’s not gonna hurt and if it makes you want to kiss me... Then it worked

ok.. I've changed da songs on my blog =] Hope you'll like them ;)

Just done with yet another drawing. I not only learnt how to draw but I've also learnt an important lesson.. I learnt that I have to make wiser choices and plan more properly and realistically. I wanted to draw a compass in 4 positions all in 3D and on 1 sheet of paper.. sort of like a cinematography thing. Sure, it could be done.. But I was too ambitious. I didn't have the time and I couldn't draw all 4 of them as it was way too complicated. [considering that i have to draw all the cross sections and what nots in it.] so.. I wasted my whole friday night, thinking how to draw and converting it from 3d in real time and space, to 3d on a 2d plane. Yea.. i decided to give up and settled for less. I drew a tweaser. =] It's so much easier and didn't take me too long to complete. Yet, I've wasted precious time and I have other things to do and submit by monday as well. Sigh. The saddening part is that, I accidently tore that tweaser drawing!!! wth!! =O=O thank goodness its just the side and not the main drawing. I hope my teacher won't mind.

Dad's not very pleased with me and thinks that my attitude is poor. But seriously, are all good architects neat? =_= I'm not neat, but I still wanna be an architect.. will I not get to be one just because I'm not neat?

sigh.. shall prepare for the next day

ciao.

yup, today's my bdae.. and wanna give thanks to:

sha, esther, jielin, arun, benjamin, xinyi, goh chern, xiang yeow, candice, carol, ji wei and many others who sent their well wishes.

[the above is in random order, from what I recall]

I'm proud to say I've completed part of my assignment. Topic's on sensuality =]
Here's a pic of the 16 drawings used to explain the word, sensuality. Like it? ^_^

Now's part 2 of the assignment and I shall think about the clay model we're going to make. Keep you guys updated soon ;)

You Are Impact

You are very unique and quite striking. You are forceful and aggressive. You never go unnoticed, and people recognize your power instantly. While you make your presence known, your message is a bit fuzzy. You are not the easiest person to understand, and you're not one for details.

What Font Are You?

Who Should Paint You: Gustav Klimt

Sensual and gorgeous, you would inspire an enchanting portrait.. With just enough classic appeal to be hung in any museum!

What Artist Should Paint Your Portrait?

What Your Ideal Wedding Dress Says About You

Your Personal Style: Funky and a bit retro. You draw from a lot of inspirations, but you always look put together. Your Ideal Wedding: A simple outdoor wedding with a few close friends. Your Philosophy on Marriage: Marriage is a journey. It's not all about who you're married to. It's also about how you approach it. Your Perfect Marriage: Has lots of open communication, flexibility, and understanding. Where both people are happy to give more than get.

The Wedding Dress Test

Your Love is Based on Commitment

You believe that love is something that develops and grows. You don't believe in love at first site, and you never mistake lust for love. For you, love is about mutual devotion, respect, and understanding. You don't feel comfortable in a relationship, unless you're both in it for the long run. Why your love can last: You don't take commitment lightly - or leave relationships easily Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship

What Is Your Love Based On?

Your Learning Style: Idealistic and Flexible

You enjoy learning anything that can help others... from making the world more beautiful to saving lives. You Should Study: Architecture Environmental Science Fashion Design Forestry Interior design International Studies Literature Music Nursing Restaurant management Studio Art Veterinary Medicine

What Should You Study?

haha.. I think I ought to watch my expenditure.. Been spending a lot lately. I've got myself some electronic devices.. and the amount I spend on clothes, food, entertainment.. gosh. I think I've spent at least 3 thousand bucks for the past few months. Sigh.. I hope there are work opportunities that I can take on when studying.

=] I love spending my own money!=]

Next time I'll learn to make money work for me ;)

It's my last day at work but I couldn't finish one last bit.. so I'm going back to get my business done! haha.. treated da ppl to KFC =] it's not too bad. Mdm's gonna make me whipped potato! my fav.. =] so loving.. hahah..

Hope I'll get to work with them again sometime.. =p

I totally hate the bidding thing.. sigh.. no point complaining..

Going out with Damien!! Gosh.. it's been NINE MONTHS since we last met. dotz. My kid would be born if I concieved in october.. ahaha.. old joke old joke =p

Yup.. Can't wait to meet him ^_^ so we can go watch X files and look at some exhibition stuff. [Note: I tried calling the other gals but they couldn't make it.. and I promised to go out with him someday.. since he's studying med in Britain soon.. *sniff sniff]

School's starting soon and I'm pretty excited. I haven't really been planning my life, my time all these while.. and I'm quite set to do well and get the most out of my education this time.

I still haven't figured out my path.. but I shall embrace my new course with an open mind.. and try to find my own answer to the simple but difficult-to-answer question: What is architecture?

haha.. I had a fun time at sentosa with sha, jan n jack! ^_^

jack shared his first time and I shared mine with him.. hahaha!! sounds so wrong! @_@

what I meant was.. i shared my very first subway meal with him.. and he shared his very first tandem biking experience with me =D

took lotsa funny pix but they're still with sha n jan +_+

it's been 7 months..but it didn't feel that long ago and distant..

we bought this island life luggage tag ^_^ so we can put our pix in..

wish we could have more fun together..

Thx to XQ, Sha, Jan, Esther, Nick, ADTC for making an effort to keep in touch and giving me your blessings. ;)


Love you all my frens!

Yours truly,

Jas.

I'm glad I found someone I can slowly learn to trust. =]

And here are some tips I found from www.everystudent.com
[meant more for guys]

Dating Advice #1:I now know that sex isn't all it's cracked up to be.
When I was in university, I remember having an experience that I referred to as a "love hangover." After being with a girl, the next morning I always felt an emptiness. That's something you won't see on TV or in films, but it happens a lot. There was emptiness, even regret, afterwards.
The "love hangover" was a strange occurrence for me. Mainly because when I was in university, sex was my "god." As a male, it's what I thought about morning, noon and night. So you would imagine that having sex would have been completely fulfilling-- the crowning achievement in the worship of my "god." And yet, there was often a lack of fulfilment afterwards.
Has that been your experience, too? Have you ever had a "love hangover"? If you have, you should stop and consider, "Why is that? Why is it that sex, if it's so important to me, leaves me with an empty feeling?"
I remember being confused by this emptiness. I then concluded: "I just need more [sex], that's all." (We often think this way about stuff we hope will fulfil us, then doesn't. For example, we get the car we've always wanted, but then it's just "okay" after awhile. Instead of realizing that a car can't really satisfy us, we usually make the error of thinking, "Well, I guess that wasn't the right car. A different one will give me lasting fulfilment.")
But the emptiness continued. So, finally, I came to the conclusion that premarital sex wasn't all it's cracked up to be. It gets too much hype. It's not what films make it out to be. If it were, it would be completely fulfiling. There wouldn't be any "emptiness."

Dating Advice #2:I now want to be more honourable toward women.
I've found that girls often don't fully understand what's going on when it comes to sex. That is, their perspective on the whole thing is very different from a guy's. Often a girl will justify sex by saying, "But I love him," even if she doesn't really want to go through with it. Why does that happen? It's been said that, "Girls use sex to get love; guys use love to get sex."
This is how it works: the girl is picturing marrying the guy some day; the guy is picturing everything he wants to do with the girl before he goes back to tell his buddies about it. And while something inside her is telling her it's the right thing to do, something inside the guy is telling him just the opposite, yet he proceeds. Why? For the physical pleasure no doubt, but also, I think, for another reason: it makes him feel like a man. But there is a great irony in that, for what is manly about deceiving a woman?
Something I've discovered is that, when you honour a woman, you are honouring yourself. Why? Because someday you will have regret, and the regret will last much longer than the pleasure. In the film Rob Roy, the main character says, "Honour is a gift a man gives himself." When you honour a woman by doing what you know to be right in your heart (that is, what's in her best interest), you honour yourself and insure that you will have no long-lasting regrets to live with.

Dating Advice #3:That's somebody else's wife.
Here's what I mean: most of the girls I've been with are now married to other men. When I put myself in the shoes of those men, I wish that I hadn't done what I've done. In fact, I might even like to punch myself in the nose for it.
And so it goes without saying that when I get married, I'm not going to like the idea that someone else has had his way with my wife. What about you? Do you like the idea of someone else being with your wife? If you have a girlfriend now and feel that way, think of how much stronger that feeling will be with your wife someday.
You can even take it a step further. That girl is someone's daughter. What if she were my daughter? Or what if she were my sister? Would I want some guy like me taking advantage of her? I now see girls from a different perspective. They're someone else's future wife, someone else's daughter, sister, etc.

Dating Advice #4:Sex has killed my best relationships.
For example, I had a university sweetheart, the girl of my dreams. With her, there was never a dull moment. We totally "clicked." We waited for awhile, then, through my initiation, we started having sex.
Sex soon became the focus of our relationship. I stopped wanting to get to know her on any other level. And so, instead of growing closer together, we actually started drifting apart. That's what I mean by "sex killed my best relationships." People can relate on many different levels -- emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually. But when my girlfriend and I started relating mostly physically, it short-circuited the other parts of our relationship. As a result, the relationship as a whole started to go south. We might still be together today if we (I) had waited.
I've seen this happen with countless relationships, not just others of my own, but those of many other people. And I think there's a reason for this, which I'll explain next.

Dating Advice #5:Sex before marriage ruins the other parts of the relationship.
For me, two things happened once I had sex with a girl. As I look back on it, I can say that they happened literally every time, although I was unaware of these dynamics at the time. The two things were this: 1) I lost respect for the girl (even though I didn't want to); and 2) she began to mistrust me (even though she didn't want to).
I don't know why this happened, I just know that it did. Maybe it's just built into "the system." But one thing's for sure: I'm not alone. I've seen it happen over and over again. I know many people having marital problems because they engaged in premarital sex. They go into the marriage with lack of respect and lack of trust, two absolute necessities for the health of any marriage.
I know a newlywed couple who have sex less than once a month because of this--he doesn't respect her, she knows it, and she doesn't trust him, so she doesn't want to give herself to him. It's very sad, and more common than you might think. But nobody talks about this kind of thing in public. And the film and TV portrayals of couples having sex before marriage never present it either. It's like no one wants to acknowledge that it's happening, even though it is.

Dating Advice #6:Waiting to have sex with my wife will mean better sex in my marriage.
Why? Because we'll go into the marriage with me having more respect for her and her having more trust in me. One thing I've learnt: if a girl doesn't trust a guy, she doesn't want to give herself wholly to him. Deep down, she doesn't really enjoy being with him.
This is how it works. Since "girls use sex to get love, and guys use love to get sex," a couple will have sex before marriage. The girl does this to hold on to the relationship. The guy does it because he wants it even more than the relationship itself. Then, after the marriage, the woman has what she wants: a commitment from the man. So she doesn't need to use sex to get him anymore. And, because she may be harboring resentment because he had sex with her before they were married, she is now not interested in sex. And the guy -- who doesn't treasure his wife because of the sex before marriage -- still wants sex but not as a total bonding experience with his wife. It's just sex, which she figures out. So, there is a lousy sex life in the marriage.
I'm not making this stuff up. Now that I'm out of university and many people around me are getting married, I'm seeing it happen all the time. The antidote: waiting for marriage to have sex will give the man a greater respect for his wife and the woman a greater respect for her husband. And consequently they'll have better and more frequent sex because they respect each other more and love each other more deeply.

Dating Advice #7:Not having sex with other women will mean better sex in my marriage.
Sex is a mysterious thing that causes a deep bond between people, even if we call it "casual." The problem is this: the more I bond with other girls, the less I'll be able to bond with my future wife. It's like a piece of scotch tape -- the more you use it on different surfaces, the less it sticks to things. After awhile, it won't stick to anything.
If I bond with other girls before I get married, I won't be able to bond as well with my wife someday. I won't cherish her as much as I could have, and consequently I won't love her as much as I could have. Each day that passes that I've remained faithful to my future wife means that my relationship with her will be better.
It's a funny thing: our culture decries adultery, yet it freely condones premarital sex, even with multiple partners. That's ironic. Because, if you take the element of time out of the equation, premarital sex is adultery. We can imagine how adultery would greatly injure a marriage relationship, maybe premarital sex actually has nearly the same result. It injures the potential bond between a man and a woman.

Dating Advice #8:I don't have to sleep with a woman to know if we're "sexually compatible."
Sex is meant to compliment a relationship, not be the most important aspect of it. That's what I've found out. It's supposed to be the icing on the cake when all the other aspects of your relationship are working well. I've come to understand that the sex will be good if the rest of the relationship is good. That's why I know I don't have to sleep with my wife to find out if we're sexually compatible. If we get along in every other area, the sex will be fine.
Something else needs to be said here. Another thing I think I've "discovered" is this: when you place sex as the determining factor of the relationship, it will probably result in poor sex. Think about it. If you put your sexual relationship under a microscope, always judging it and judging the relationship by it, it's doomed to fail. It's like being in prison. You're locked in to something that is supposed to be freeing, not incapacitating.
But, when you focus on the other parts of the relationship, and the sex isn't the focus, then you're freed up to have a more enjoyable sex life, with no pressure of having to make it always spectacular. (Because it won't be.) And yet, I don't think that as a university-age adult I was capable of not focusing on sex, that is, unless it wasn't present at all. That's why I think it's best to wait altogether.

Lust is powerful and seductive, but it's inherently selfish and opposed to love. As we foster and feed lust in our lives we're dragged inexorably towards isolation, loneliness, insecurity and emptiness. What do we have left when orgasm becomes boring and unsatisfying, left alone to face the pain of guilt and loneliness?

Love with commitment is clearly very expensive and hard work. It requires honour, respect, forgiveness and sacrifice. However it's the road out of the loneliness, suspicion and despair that plagues our culture. If we substitute lust for love we end up with a meaningless sensation which eventually loses its novelty and can never satisfy beyond the physical.

Totally shagged after camp.

Got a fever and some throat inflammation. But I'm fine after seeing the doc.

Got to know really cool seniors, learn cool cheers..
Had fun making boobs for guys for a skid. It was so funny I wanted to pee when I was squeezing his new boobs.. XP

and kinda getting used to Archi life. =]

Sad to say, I haven't found anyone I like [as a partner yet] cos da seniors said most likely you would find your partner there. oh wells.


Going for Cath High Family Day!!

Ciao.

I was tagged by Sha.. =] see? mei mei ish so zi dong [aka automatic]
A. If your lover betrays you, what will you do?
If I'm not in a rotten mood, I'd slap him and kick him in the nuts. If I'm in an ultra bad mood, I might go cranky, stab/chop him and kick him in the nuts. It depends =p
B. If you can have a dream that will come true, what will it be?
Find a good guy who loves me and have enough money to travel around the world.
C. What will your dream wedding be like?
I don't need an ultra showy wedding. I just want my closest buddies to give me their blessings and have this really honest husband-to-be to really love me.
D. Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
I guess.. well, I'm really poor with directions, more so when it comes to directions in life. But I think I'll just have to keep walking and learn all that I can..
E. What is your ideal lover like?
Sigh. What's the point of talking about ideal partner? Realistically, he just has to be caring, supporting, sincere and serious about wanting to spend his life with me.. going through everything together. Is that difficult?
F. Which is more blessed, loving or being loved?
Being loved.
G. How long do you intent to wait for someone you love?
So long as he's still interested, just not ready. [But the thing is.. what do you mean by wait for someone? Honestly, I don't really mind waiting if it meant marriage. But I do mind if waiting meant waiting for him to express his feelings. As in, if he's not interested.. then it's off. What for waste time when I can take that same time to find someone else who might be interested. Right? =]
H. If the person you like is secretly attached, what will you do?
I will slap him and kick him in the nuts for wasting my time and precious youth =p
I. Is there anything that has made you unhappy this few days?
Boring work that never seem to end.. Feeling a bit lonely.
J. What do you want most in life?
Sincerity in relationships. It's the one thing that's really hard to get nowadays.
K. Do you like being tagged?
Yeah. It's quite fun =]
L. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Wrinkles =X [hope to have long hair] More mature, stronger and independent.
M. Who are the most important people in your life now?
My family and close friends.
N. What kind of person do you think that the person who tagged you is?
Incredibly enjoyable-to-be-with, my lovely sister :)
O. If you could ask that person for a request and that person will return it, what will it be?
Find me that angmoh bf ah!! Bring a few so I can select xp!!
P. What is the first thing you will do every morning?
Look at my watch.. do a stretch and sink back onto my lovely bed for another 5 minutes or so.
Q. Would you give it all in a relationship?
Depends on what 'all' means. I'd definitely put in a lot of effort to keep the relationship healthy and going so long as he's willing to put in effort as well.
R. If you were to fall for 2 people at the same time, who will you pick?=\ 2 people?
If both love me with all their hearts and one is rich, the other is poor.. I'll pick da rich one. Ahaha.. heh. If da poor guy really loves me, he'd want me to be happy too, right? So actually, either won't be too upset cos they love me and want me to be happy. If both are equally rich and both love me.. Haiya so easy! pick da one who's more anti-social/sickly! Ahaha.. inherit all da money when he dies. =_= okok.. kidding.. Matters of the heart is complicated. Shall decide when it really happens. But I don't think I'm that fortunate.. =p to have 2 guys after me.
S. What type of friends do you like?
Friends that will go through thick and thin with me =]
T. If you played a prank on someone and they fall for it, what will you do?
Tease them each time I see them. =]

OH NO!! Exceeded my HP bill for 3 months!!!! *ahhhhhhhh *glares at some individuals who's been tempting me to msg back. *shrugs. humph.

So I shall NOT touch my phone and msg unless absolutely necessary!

NO. DON'T YOU MSG ME UNNECESSARILY. I WON'T REPLY [via msg and using hp to call]

What if us gals earn more than our guys? Read this article first.



Some things that I agree with

• The fact that I can trust someone with all my thoughts and insecurities and know that he still loves me. The assurance of being accepted for what and who I am. The intellectual rapport we share. The giddy feeling that comes from being in love and knowing that someone out there cares about you. Is something money can't buy.


• Why would I look down on him? I never fell in love with his wallet or with his bank balance. I fell in love with him. If I did look down upon him, I would never consider marrying him.


• Why should respect be the result of money? I respect my boyfriend for who he is and what he means to me. Whether rich or poor, his character (and my opinion of it) does not change..


• After listening to our parents' views and concerns, I have to admit income inequality could sow bitter seeds of contention, instead of unity and stability.


• But whether or not it becomes an issue when the balance in earning power is tipped towards the woman is very personal to each couple.


• It ultimately boils down to people's core beliefs about who they are and what they need to be doing to feel like a 'real' man or woman.


• While I feel the insecurity of a man earning less than a woman is sheer stupidity on the part of mature adults, it does exist.

Note: The above is on the assumption that I will have a boyfriend who earns less than me in the future. Right now, I'm still available and single. ^_^

Ok. Now from my own thinking about this issue.

First of all, I do have a certain kind of lifestyle that I want to live by. I guess I'm raised in a high-middle class family. I remember how good times were then, when I was young. And I think that's the motivation behind why I want to be financially stable, to return to that kind of living. [basically, just buying things every weekend, going on shopping, high tea, having a good time.. and all these need money.]

I won't really mind if my boyfriend/husband earns less than me and I'm willing to support the family by contributing more [it's like progressive tax, earn more, pay more] And I would happily help him in any situation if he needs me [after all, what are friends/relatives for]

I think the main problem is how the other party looks at it? Sometimes, there are cases where the man has this 'ego' thing going on. Yea, like the need to be in-charge and the need to provide. It's more or less something built into our minds. But I believe in changes, positive changes. I believe that in a family, we all have responsibilities and our places. I think we can share our responsibilities and make compromises. If he's not comfortable with something, we can always work out solutions.

Conclusion: Communication is the KEY to a healthy and good relationship.

Love is like food.. You just need it.

So what kind of food/love do you like?

In love, I know I tend to think of what could have been better or what's da next dish. Sometimes, after eating the same dish for a long time, you get sick of it. And you crave for something else, like cake for a change..

But it's not very feasible to eat cake all your life right?

So.. I've decided.. I wanna find that nice plate of fragrant white rice.. cos I can decide how to cook it. I can fry it, steam it, mash it, add stuff to it.. i can make it into fried rice, dumpling, sushi, some weird rice pie.. anything so long as I'm creative! So you see.. good old rice is my staple and it can last for a long time ^_^ I just have to put in some effort so that it's not plain and boring =]

Yummy rice! I'm coming~~ haha.